The way it really is
Where am I going tomorrow?
TO SEE THE METS!
YAY!
YAY FOR METS!
BOO for ORANGE on my HEAD. But... YAY FOR METS.
In other news- Lost another two pounds!
In other other news... I probably have some very profound deep thoughts that have been slowly taken away by my two very quickly enhaled glasses of wine.
But I can say I am feeling more and more secure with myself every day that passes. I don't know what switch went off in the past few months, but I hope it doesn't turn off anytime soon.
I'm doing things for me, and in turn it makes my actions for others more genuine. Not just to fill some hated void in myself, but to be a good person. And that feels good.
I think it all probably began when I started singing again. It's strange how the smallest things can have the most positve influence on your life. I am surrounded every week with the most talented group of people I can even imagine, and I am a part of that. Granted, I am not as talented as they are, but the fact that I can even make it that far and be a part of something like that really overwhelms me everytime I leave rehearsal. That makes me feel so good about myself, and very proud of myself. And I don't see why I shouldn't be. They're 48586060 times better than I'll ever be, but I leave everyday knowing that I've learned something and I'm a part of something really and truly amazing.
And with that pride, I've taken it and applied it to other places. And I'm feeling very good about everything right now. It's all falling into place, and that's really, really good for me.
Tomorrow, well today now, I have an interview for a new position at work. No real pay increase, but it would get me the fuck out of where I am. It's not even a position I think I really want, but it'd be M-F with normal hours and a chance to start over and be positive about my job again. We'll see how it goes. Everything happens for a reason.
That's all folks.
TO SEE THE METS!
YAY!
YAY FOR METS!
BOO for ORANGE on my HEAD. But... YAY FOR METS.
In other news- Lost another two pounds!
In other other news... I probably have some very profound deep thoughts that have been slowly taken away by my two very quickly enhaled glasses of wine.
But I can say I am feeling more and more secure with myself every day that passes. I don't know what switch went off in the past few months, but I hope it doesn't turn off anytime soon.
I'm doing things for me, and in turn it makes my actions for others more genuine. Not just to fill some hated void in myself, but to be a good person. And that feels good.
I think it all probably began when I started singing again. It's strange how the smallest things can have the most positve influence on your life. I am surrounded every week with the most talented group of people I can even imagine, and I am a part of that. Granted, I am not as talented as they are, but the fact that I can even make it that far and be a part of something like that really overwhelms me everytime I leave rehearsal. That makes me feel so good about myself, and very proud of myself. And I don't see why I shouldn't be. They're 48586060 times better than I'll ever be, but I leave everyday knowing that I've learned something and I'm a part of something really and truly amazing.
And with that pride, I've taken it and applied it to other places. And I'm feeling very good about everything right now. It's all falling into place, and that's really, really good for me.
Tomorrow, well today now, I have an interview for a new position at work. No real pay increase, but it would get me the fuck out of where I am. It's not even a position I think I really want, but it'd be M-F with normal hours and a chance to start over and be positive about my job again. We'll see how it goes. Everything happens for a reason.
That's all folks.