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I can't believe I've been back in Ann Arbor for a week and a half already. It was SO nice to be home with my boyfriend and my cat, and now my heart is breaking at the idea of leaving them again in a few days. I realized that separation will be the norm for basically 2 full years.. I'll be in Maryland for the school year, hopefully do a summer program, and then go back to Maryland for my second year. I know it sounds obvious, but it was kind of a harsh reality check. I am praying that I make some really close friends, because otherwise I might not be able to function. I'm thinking about saying goodbye to little Figaro again, and I feel just as awful as I did 3 months ago. I know it sounds silly because he's a cat, but that's just it.. he's a cat, so 2 full years is a significant part of his life, and I won't be there. And I mean, I think it goes without saying that leaving David will be excruciating, knowing that I'm only going to see him every couple months for 2 full years.
I'm just really questioning my decisions right now, and I keep reminding myself of what I supposedly want. I hope I'm doing the right thing, because right now, my heart is breaking.
Ok, done being lame and sappy. Back to packing.
I'm just really questioning my decisions right now, and I keep reminding myself of what I supposedly want. I hope I'm doing the right thing, because right now, my heart is breaking.
Ok, done being lame and sappy. Back to packing.