May 28, 2004 12:00
It has been literally months since i wrote in this thing last. But i feel maybe its a good time to start again. I have exactly 8 school days left of my high school career, which is pretty fucking crazy in my mind. These four years have gone by so quickly, i dont know where all the time went. I offically decided to attend UVM, which im totally stoked about. I've been talking to so many guys and girls who are going with me, and it should be a killer time. its overwhelming and all cause i wont be here in syosset anymore. I wont wake up to have my mom say hi, or walk up the driveway to see my dad fix a car. Hrmm, what else... Im still dating christopher, its just over a year, and its been pretty damn intresting to say the least. I kind of feel i have gotten over that first phase of being obesseive. It is just a norm in my life now, i love him to death, i still have all those butterflies, but im not talking about him 24/7 anymore. It feels like a strange sense of marriage. But with college comming up and all, who knows what will happen. It's going to be incredibly wierd to be able to see him every day if i wished. While everyone's realtionships are becomming long distance, mine is becoming a regular one. Fucked up indeed. Senior year has been crazy, many new friendships, prom is in exactly two weeks, and i look nice in my dress. i dropped 39.5 pounds since late january/ early february, and still more to lose, so if you knew what i looked like before, then throw that image away, cause i look different. Much thinner... everywhere. These last few days have been pretty boring. My brother graduated a week ago tomorrow from Hofstra University in Hempstead, and it was quite the contreversy... front page news, and all. This honory speaker E.L. Doctrow (the author of ragtime) gave this anti-bush speech and was booed like whoa. Although i agree with a shitload of what he said, i strongly feel it was not the time or place to give that speech. Commencement speechs are about unifying the class and giving advice and encouragement, not babbling about how the president makes up fictionally stores. Freedom of speech... its a crazy thing.
But i hate babbling, so i'll end this here... hello again my friends... hope all is well with everyone, and much peace and love.