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I think that little by little I'm becoming invisible
Its almost a consious decision to not be noticed by anybody i don't need to know
I don't call people because I don't really believe they want to see me
Its quite melodramatic and lonely
I haven't made anything out of myself yet
So there fore I don't deserve any body's attention
Its almost my birthday and I really don't want anybody to know
Just go to work and pretend its another day and come home and hide in my room again
Its not that I'm maladjusted
Its that I'm too adjusted
My life is too easy
If I wanted I could lock myself in my house and never leave and no one would mind much
I get lost and confused in my place in this world
So i have become bland speaking only of the weather and movies
i lead no life of my own
Is it time to become reckless, to be young and make bad decisions?
to be slutty or unguarded
to not care of other people's perception of my personality
to have friends and go out
to meet guys that might not be so cute or funny or smart but don't mind me?
at one point in my life i want to be one of those girls with the low self esteem
who hit on dudes and get fucked in bathroom stalls and not care so much
something different
somebody different
maybe somebody who is happy or at least somebody who acts
Its almost a consious decision to not be noticed by anybody i don't need to know
I don't call people because I don't really believe they want to see me
Its quite melodramatic and lonely
I haven't made anything out of myself yet
So there fore I don't deserve any body's attention
Its almost my birthday and I really don't want anybody to know
Just go to work and pretend its another day and come home and hide in my room again
Its not that I'm maladjusted
Its that I'm too adjusted
My life is too easy
If I wanted I could lock myself in my house and never leave and no one would mind much
I get lost and confused in my place in this world
So i have become bland speaking only of the weather and movies
i lead no life of my own
Is it time to become reckless, to be young and make bad decisions?
to be slutty or unguarded
to not care of other people's perception of my personality
to have friends and go out
to meet guys that might not be so cute or funny or smart but don't mind me?
at one point in my life i want to be one of those girls with the low self esteem
who hit on dudes and get fucked in bathroom stalls and not care so much
something different
somebody different
maybe somebody who is happy or at least somebody who acts