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[defntlyntvanila]

i don't enjoy being young
i don't relish in it
Sometimes just wish that this time period in my life is over
and i could be in the thick of what I'll become
if i could crawl inside of myself and just lay still enough
maybe i was born an old woman
funny thing is, i can't even imagine being old
is it because i have been old this whole time?
I'd like to think of myself as this tragically romantic character but
in reality just a sad caustic scared to the core spoiled and coddled girl
if something was actually wrong this would all make sense, but there isn't
so i feel empty inside