While I've been gone...
It all started may 16th 2011. That night I had stolen my mothers credit card for the millionth time to buy booze, pizza, gas, and cigarettes and gone over to matt and liz's apartment. When I got there the only people there were Matt and Sean, Liz was out of town. My mom kicked me out for stealing her credit card so I had to stay over with Matt and Sean (and brandon who wasn't there for what I remember of the night). Well that night I ended up drinking over a gallon of vodka to myself and most of the night was blacked out, which is when Brandon raped me, they say he was as drunk as I was.
The next day I ended up in the hospital for alcohol withdrawal and suicidal thoughts, I was also treated for the burn on my leg leftover from when the boys were chasing me around with lighter fluid and a bic the night before and setting me on fire. I was shipped off to Ohio Hospital For Psychiatry later that day where I would ultimately end up being probated (court ordered) by the court and stayed for 57 days. My probate was then transferred to the state hospital, Twin Valley, for another month and a half. I was ultimately released to a home for the severely mentally disabled where I eventually got kicked out of after two months for things like eavesdropping and backtalk. It was not a fun experience.
After being kicked out I went back to Ohio Hospital For Psychiatry for 10 days, and upon release was dropped off at the homeless shelter. The first homeless shelter was called Rebecca's place, I stayed there for 30 days. I filed for food stamps, medicaid, and SSI while there. I'm still waiting on the medicaid and the SSI. After my 30 days was up I moved into Nancy's place downtown.
While I was at Nancy's place I met a man named Red on the bus. I also saw him at the mens shelter across the street a few times, therefore I thought I could trust him. Well about a week ago my theory was proved wrong when he raped me. It was my faulty decision making and lack of street skills that got me in the position for him to gain power over me, but as I said I thought I could myself alone with him.
The cops found me in the vacant house he raped me in and took me to the hospital to get a rape kit. The cops spotted Red approximately two days later across the street from Nancys place and arrested him. He is currently in jail for a misdemeanor but the detective on the case told me today that he will be released soon and will be back at the shelters.
I moved out of the shelter the morning after the rape. I was supposed to move back in with my mom but we got into a huge fight so I asked matt and liz if I could stay with them for a few days until I get a spot at a shelter away from Red. We've decided to make our living situation permanent and that I'm just going to move in with them.
Needless to say life has been pretty fucking hard lately. I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with things right now. Which step to take first etc. Most days I end up pulling out my hair.
Thats all I need to get off my chest for now, thank you journal.
The next day I ended up in the hospital for alcohol withdrawal and suicidal thoughts, I was also treated for the burn on my leg leftover from when the boys were chasing me around with lighter fluid and a bic the night before and setting me on fire. I was shipped off to Ohio Hospital For Psychiatry later that day where I would ultimately end up being probated (court ordered) by the court and stayed for 57 days. My probate was then transferred to the state hospital, Twin Valley, for another month and a half. I was ultimately released to a home for the severely mentally disabled where I eventually got kicked out of after two months for things like eavesdropping and backtalk. It was not a fun experience.
After being kicked out I went back to Ohio Hospital For Psychiatry for 10 days, and upon release was dropped off at the homeless shelter. The first homeless shelter was called Rebecca's place, I stayed there for 30 days. I filed for food stamps, medicaid, and SSI while there. I'm still waiting on the medicaid and the SSI. After my 30 days was up I moved into Nancy's place downtown.
While I was at Nancy's place I met a man named Red on the bus. I also saw him at the mens shelter across the street a few times, therefore I thought I could trust him. Well about a week ago my theory was proved wrong when he raped me. It was my faulty decision making and lack of street skills that got me in the position for him to gain power over me, but as I said I thought I could myself alone with him.
The cops found me in the vacant house he raped me in and took me to the hospital to get a rape kit. The cops spotted Red approximately two days later across the street from Nancys place and arrested him. He is currently in jail for a misdemeanor but the detective on the case told me today that he will be released soon and will be back at the shelters.
I moved out of the shelter the morning after the rape. I was supposed to move back in with my mom but we got into a huge fight so I asked matt and liz if I could stay with them for a few days until I get a spot at a shelter away from Red. We've decided to make our living situation permanent and that I'm just going to move in with them.
Needless to say life has been pretty fucking hard lately. I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with things right now. Which step to take first etc. Most days I end up pulling out my hair.
Thats all I need to get off my chest for now, thank you journal.