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I drove by the spot where Josh died last night...theres still some memorial stuff there. I guess his family and some of our friends planted stuff there for easter this past weekend. There is usually stuff there though. It brought birthed a lot of thoughts though about him and James.
The anniversary of James' suicide is coming up soon...on the 22nd. I think it'll be 4 years but I remember it as if it was yesterday. Everything is fresh in my memory. It's like a movie that can play back. Every thought and feeling...the ambulance...the memorial...the therapy sessions...
just everything.
the funeral.
the bus ride.
everything associated with it.
I wish the memories would fade.
I need to get over it. I obviously haven't grieved his death.
It hits hard every year...
I miss him so much.
I just had to write that somewhere.
The anniversary of James' suicide is coming up soon...on the 22nd. I think it'll be 4 years but I remember it as if it was yesterday. Everything is fresh in my memory. It's like a movie that can play back. Every thought and feeling...the ambulance...the memorial...the therapy sessions...
just everything.
the funeral.
the bus ride.
everything associated with it.
I wish the memories would fade.
I need to get over it. I obviously haven't grieved his death.
It hits hard every year...
I miss him so much.
I just had to write that somewhere.