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Priorities are difficult to keep in the correct order. Or maybe it is life goals that I am trying to access some thought into. I just returned from an interview at Whole Foods to work in the bakery. The interview went well and they will probably offer me a job in the next day or two. Is that what I want to be doing though? Currently, I am working at a tiny bakery where everything is made with high quality mostly organic ingredients all from scratch. The owner of the cafe that I currently work at is such a sweet person, and the cafe is only 5 blocks from my house. The problem is that the pay is terrible and I don't get very many hours. It is summer though and it is fun to not work very much, just enough to have a little money to walk around with. The Whole Foods job would pay well and give me benefits and a steady way of living. I would feel like a sellout though. I know so many people who I would be embarrassed to tell them that I work at Whole Foods (myself included). They are the bully! They are pure evil when it comes to buying the little guys out and descructing local and actual sustainable methods of getting food. Worst of all, they are fake liars pretending to represent an environmental cause and banking in on being "green" in the eyes of yuppies.
How could I live and know that I am working my life away to support these sort of things? It is hard to decipher what isn't evil as far as work places are concerned right now. Suddenly, for the first time I wish I had a bigger goal in mind. I wish I were either being creative or helping a great cause that I knew I could stand behind (or both.) I should focus on these things and gather more clarity. In the meantime, I might be selling my soul for temporary reasons...