confused
i think my bf dumped/will dump me...not so sure.
I get the whole inconsidertness of me not calling when I said i would. I said in an hour or so in hispanic time that means like 3 hours. but enough about symantics.... I hate that he doesn't think i care. if i didn't care i wouldn't have told him anything about going out,looking for some kind of approval i would have just gone. If I didn't care I wouldn't blow my friends off all the time and skip out on some stuff and really limit my whole social-ness. ( i think i just like adding ness to everything....ness) i can't sleep. oh apperantly i don't care cuz i don't know his work schedule. I did know it, but then he just started working some during the week so how am I supposed to be 100% knowing what his schedual when it isn't exactly the same and I have my own shit going on, like how i most definatly paid rent late, how I had to call the health insurence cuz my doctor was charging me and i need a tb testing and all the other little bits and pieces of life. and i asked him if he was staying up late and he said yes, how was i supposed to know he had to work in the morning? I asked him that specifically because I know I might be there longer than an hour. if he'd said, no, or i'll only be up for a little bit cuz i got work... I definatly would have called cuz i've been in his shoes before where i'm waiting and waiting when you have other shit to do. My dad's done that since for ever...I think i get it from him maybe.
it's the same fight over and over again...for a year and a half now the same fight....over and over ......i love him very much, we're both just too stubborn on this issue.
I get the whole inconsidertness of me not calling when I said i would. I said in an hour or so in hispanic time that means like 3 hours. but enough about symantics.... I hate that he doesn't think i care. if i didn't care i wouldn't have told him anything about going out,looking for some kind of approval i would have just gone. If I didn't care I wouldn't blow my friends off all the time and skip out on some stuff and really limit my whole social-ness. ( i think i just like adding ness to everything....ness) i can't sleep. oh apperantly i don't care cuz i don't know his work schedule. I did know it, but then he just started working some during the week so how am I supposed to be 100% knowing what his schedual when it isn't exactly the same and I have my own shit going on, like how i most definatly paid rent late, how I had to call the health insurence cuz my doctor was charging me and i need a tb testing and all the other little bits and pieces of life. and i asked him if he was staying up late and he said yes, how was i supposed to know he had to work in the morning? I asked him that specifically because I know I might be there longer than an hour. if he'd said, no, or i'll only be up for a little bit cuz i got work... I definatly would have called cuz i've been in his shoes before where i'm waiting and waiting when you have other shit to do. My dad's done that since for ever...I think i get it from him maybe.
it's the same fight over and over again...for a year and a half now the same fight....over and over ......i love him very much, we're both just too stubborn on this issue.