Rollercoster of a day
Well, I guess it would be more accurate to say that it has been 6wks of craziness. My Mom was diagnosed with kidney failure shortly after Christmas and it has been incredibly intense to deal with. My sister is in Utah and my Mom is not married, her brother and sister live in New Jersey and Georgia respectively. So I get the brunt of all of this stuff on my own. But my church has been mostly supportive, and that has been a great blessing.
The guy I was "seeing", decided that he and his wife (of whom they had been separated for more than a year, and when the romantic-ish stuff happened, was not planning on returning to) have decided to give it a go again. It makes me sick. So I've spent the better part of a month, in Cleveland, dealing with Mom and when I'm not doing Mom stuff, I'm wondering why J doesn't love me when clearly I am better/cooler than her. Duh. But it makes my heart hurt. And I did get to spend some time with him, and fight with him for hours over text, and then reconcile. He's helping my Mom out with driving her to the doctor and to dialyasis treatments. He's a good man, and that makes my heart hurt even more. Because I am great at pick these sort of people -- the emotionally unavailible men -- and the one thing they have in common is me.
I went back to the gym today. I was very glad for the workout. But I had to renew my membership. Now, this was worked into my contract with the church. They'd pay for my membership. Well, there's one woman who believes that because SHE doesn't see me at the gym, means I'm not using it effectively. So she wants the church to buy a "punch card" that has 20 visits on it, and I would keep "renewing" it with the church as I use it. Whatever. It's a privacy issue for one. It is ONE PERSON who is doing this and it drives me crazy.. Anyway, I had my annual review, and this was brought up. THe Board Chair said this was an option. I said I didn't want it. He said ok. I thought that was done. So I bought my membership today to get reimbursed for it. Well, I couldn't wait all day for the call and thought it would be fine. But no. It still has to be ok'd by the Board. But this was worked out in my contract previous to this. I will fight for this. It is none of their damn business what I do with my membership. It is counted as a portion of my salary.
On a good thing, I have been ok'd to fly to Kansas for my friend's ordination in which I have been invited to speak. It's totally cool -- and awesome -- and scary!! I can't wait to go and see some of the most important people in my life.
I joined weight watchers today. I hate the meeting stuff. Which probably means that I will fail at this. Since I started working here, I've put back on the weight I lost before my ordination. Sucks to be me. So I'm trying to get this stuff under control because I don't want to be my Mom. So it was hard for me to go. Very hard. My cousin is doing WW too. We're going to work on a rewards system for us...we'll see what happens. So this was very emotional...and then after that meeting was when the Board Chair called...so yeah. I am pissed and feel attacked. I quit going to the gym for awhile because the woman who is kicking up such a fuss, yelled at me there and it wasn't a relaxing or fun because I felt threatened. She had yelled at me in front of the entire gym. It was very uncool.
So I feel crappy.
The guy I was "seeing", decided that he and his wife (of whom they had been separated for more than a year, and when the romantic-ish stuff happened, was not planning on returning to) have decided to give it a go again. It makes me sick. So I've spent the better part of a month, in Cleveland, dealing with Mom and when I'm not doing Mom stuff, I'm wondering why J doesn't love me when clearly I am better/cooler than her. Duh. But it makes my heart hurt. And I did get to spend some time with him, and fight with him for hours over text, and then reconcile. He's helping my Mom out with driving her to the doctor and to dialyasis treatments. He's a good man, and that makes my heart hurt even more. Because I am great at pick these sort of people -- the emotionally unavailible men -- and the one thing they have in common is me.
I went back to the gym today. I was very glad for the workout. But I had to renew my membership. Now, this was worked into my contract with the church. They'd pay for my membership. Well, there's one woman who believes that because SHE doesn't see me at the gym, means I'm not using it effectively. So she wants the church to buy a "punch card" that has 20 visits on it, and I would keep "renewing" it with the church as I use it. Whatever. It's a privacy issue for one. It is ONE PERSON who is doing this and it drives me crazy.. Anyway, I had my annual review, and this was brought up. THe Board Chair said this was an option. I said I didn't want it. He said ok. I thought that was done. So I bought my membership today to get reimbursed for it. Well, I couldn't wait all day for the call and thought it would be fine. But no. It still has to be ok'd by the Board. But this was worked out in my contract previous to this. I will fight for this. It is none of their damn business what I do with my membership. It is counted as a portion of my salary.
On a good thing, I have been ok'd to fly to Kansas for my friend's ordination in which I have been invited to speak. It's totally cool -- and awesome -- and scary!! I can't wait to go and see some of the most important people in my life.
I joined weight watchers today. I hate the meeting stuff. Which probably means that I will fail at this. Since I started working here, I've put back on the weight I lost before my ordination. Sucks to be me. So I'm trying to get this stuff under control because I don't want to be my Mom. So it was hard for me to go. Very hard. My cousin is doing WW too. We're going to work on a rewards system for us...we'll see what happens. So this was very emotional...and then after that meeting was when the Board Chair called...so yeah. I am pissed and feel attacked. I quit going to the gym for awhile because the woman who is kicking up such a fuss, yelled at me there and it wasn't a relaxing or fun because I felt threatened. She had yelled at me in front of the entire gym. It was very uncool.
So I feel crappy.