Is this friendship?

Feb 10, 2014 11:08

I cannot stand people who only want to chat when it will somehow benefit them, etc.

I gotta vent about a friend of mine because this is starting to piss me off.


to friend:

If every single one of our conversations is you talking to me about your own life problems and just venting to me like i'm your therapist for an entire 3 or 4 hours then something isn't right. That's not how friendship works. You barely let me get any word in edgewise because you talk way too fucking much, but whenever i even try to talk about my life you don't really care. Last time we spoke you said I was your friend. Is that true because I let you talk about what's been bothering you like any decent person would?
You've been making crap excuses recently for avoiding our skype calls. The first was when you ignored my Skype message while it said you were online. After about an hour and a half of me overthinking as always, you come and tell me that you were at a bar when you got my message and that you just got home. Didn't think to tweet me or message me that nearly 2 hours beforehand?

Even when i send you a direct message on Twitter last night, coming out of my shell, and saying that I want to catch up with you and to let me know whenever you're free to talk, you are still on Twitter tweeting at your other friends and it's been over like 12 hours since I sent that to you with no response.

What are you even doing? Just give me some sort of answer to this because i'm not going to bother being your friend if this is how you're going to act. Of course I probably don't have the guts to tell you this directly because you're the first person in a long time that actually took an interest in being my friend. So naturally i'm hanging on to you in hopes that it's just some misunderstanding.
Thought I should also say that I have Social Anxiety. Always had, always will. I'm getting better at dealing with it. But with this anxiety it has an effect with the way I make friends, keep friends, socialize, act, and think. You being all shady on me like this and not giving a rat's ass about this friendship at the moment is not going to help me, it's only going to hurt me. You can't tell me you want to be my friend and then do this shit because it will have a huge impact on me. The way I see things is that you're using me for your own benefit, you care more about having Google hangouts and Skype calls with your other friends, and you're flaking out on me.
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