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back at it. back at what makes my fingers dance and my mind speak. back to a place where i feel like myself. sometimes, i think you're the only one who really knows me, lj. sometimes. but even when you think you truly know yourself, do you? well maybe some do, but i cannot say that i'm one of those few. i'm no where near knowing.
the wheels in my head are spinning.
"with my feet in the air and my head on the ground. try this trick and spin it, yeah... where is my mind?"
i can never just get to the root of what is bothering me. forever, i go in this round-about way of detailing my issue.
i'm annoyed. i'm annoyed at the world and the fact that she keeps changing. i'm nervous. i'm nervous about something, everthing, yet i'm not certain what it is. i'm confused. i'm confused as to why i continue to choose dumb decisions over smart ones. i digress...
i feel like a fool. maybe i don't listen well, like he said. i've heard this before from another male. perhaps, maybe i don't.
i need some meditation in my life. but i lack concetration. i'm easily distracted and veer from my path. i need something. ugh! i feel like i've been reciting those words for years!! i have yet to figure out what, why, how!!! it's so annoying!! why must this great mystery continue to plague me!? why must i be a huge crybaby about it?! that's annoying too.
gotta go.
the wheels in my head are spinning.
"with my feet in the air and my head on the ground. try this trick and spin it, yeah... where is my mind?"
i can never just get to the root of what is bothering me. forever, i go in this round-about way of detailing my issue.
i'm annoyed. i'm annoyed at the world and the fact that she keeps changing. i'm nervous. i'm nervous about something, everthing, yet i'm not certain what it is. i'm confused. i'm confused as to why i continue to choose dumb decisions over smart ones. i digress...
i feel like a fool. maybe i don't listen well, like he said. i've heard this before from another male. perhaps, maybe i don't.
i need some meditation in my life. but i lack concetration. i'm easily distracted and veer from my path. i need something. ugh! i feel like i've been reciting those words for years!! i have yet to figure out what, why, how!!! it's so annoying!! why must this great mystery continue to plague me!? why must i be a huge crybaby about it?! that's annoying too.
gotta go.