[Fic]The unforeseen love: Chapter 9
It was time to head back. Time to go back home and then back to school. Despite the weird start of the vacation, they all enjoyed it and resented having to go back to the city where everyone was rushing in everything that had and didn’t have to do.
Nakamaru had finished putting the entire luggage back on the big bus that brought them there and then headed straight towards his master to tell him. He went up the stairs and all the way to Akanishi’s room but stopped as soon as he saw the door a bit opened. He peeked inside and saw both his boss and Kamenashi hugging each other. Such a lovely sight made butterflies rumble inside his stomach. The way Akanishi was holding the younger one, with both his arms wrapped around that slim waist, sometimes patting the boy’s hair and sometimes saying something he could hear, was completely different from the Akanishi Jin he knew.
Nakamaru smiled for himself and turned around, deciding to wait for the two to finish talking and not interrupt them. It was a far too adorable sight to ruin.
Kazuya chuckled and squeezed the older one even stronger as he was embraced. Placing his head on Jin’s chest and having his waist surrounded by warm and safe arms, made him feel really good. He could have stayed like that for hours and hours.
- Do we have a deal? Jin asked slowly, placing a small kiss near Kazuya’s right ear.
- Yeah…if anything happens I’ll call you right away. I promised, the boy smiled, wondering how protective could the other turn. For the past week, Jin had been like his bodyguard, following him around and making sure nothing bad happens anymore and that made him happy.
He was happy having Jin always by his side but a bit of pain was still present as well. His relationship with Akanishi wasn’t quite defined. Their “lovers’ status might have been set only for the soul purpose of having him safe and not because it was real, but couldn’t he make it real?
As he thought of it, he hoped he could make the older one actually fall for him. To turn the simple “lovers’ status meant to protect him into a reality and to actually become one. That was going to be his aim.
Jin didn’t act like Kazuya wasn’t his lover not even one second. On their way to the bus he rented specifically for the trip, he kept holding the boy’s hand, once they got on they set next to each other, still holding hands, and from time to time he would turn to Kazuya and smile at him. He went as far as falling asleep on the boy’s shoulder and cuddling like a little baby in a bed closer to Kamenashi’s body.
They even decided to meet up before going to college and arrive at the same time but the rest couldn’t keep their mouths closed so it ended up in a big gathering right before classes. Silently, Jin wished he could spend more time with Kazuya alone.
As expected, they all meet up at the front gate. Kazuya was really happy. The moment he got home he just crashed in his bed and tugged his pillow, wishing it was Jin instead. Was it that how being in love felt? It was a bittersweet feeling but a nice one. He liked being in love. He liked being in love with Jin. He came to school with that thought in mind. He really was hoping to enjoy their next days as now he held the title of “lover” and was close to Jin, which meant he could actually make it reality.
Both him and Jin were smiling happily as the main door to the college opened. Ryo and Ueda were at their usual, pretending to fight but looking carefully around them, Yoko felt a bit left outside as Pi and Taguchi seemed to have something going as well.
Hell broke loose. Kazuya dropped his backpack at the ground, Jin just stopped everything he did and stared, Ryo blinked in disbelief, Ueda gasped and got angry while Yoko just let out a big “WOW”. Pi and Taguchi were being quiet and looking straight in front of them. The rest of the students looked at Kazuya and started talking about him.
- Isn’t he the one? One said.
- Such a slut… , added another.
- Can’t believe it. He was the last I’d expect that from, said another, all of them looking at the boy.
Kazuya started trembling and bit his lower lip as he looked at the three photos spread on the notice board. He gulped and fearfully looked at the one next to him. Jin just clenched his fists, grit his teeth and launched towards the board, ripping those photos and throwing them away. Kamenashi covered his mouth immediately and let out a small cry as he felt he world crushing on top of him.
- Who was it?! Akanishi shouted, looking around him as if he wanted to kill every single one there.
- We…we don’t know…, answered a student.
Jin went insane. He grabbed one of the guys by the collar and pulled him up, kicking him in the stomach while at it. Sure, Pi and Ryo tried to stop him but they couldn’t. They didn’t really want to anyway. Kazuya started yelling at Jin, telling him to stop but the older couldn’t hear him at all.
In just a few seconds, he grabbed the guy and kicked him again, smashing him into one of the table nearby.
- Dare make one comment about this and I’ll kill you. Any of you! He shouted again, looking at the one’s around him as he tossed the guy aside and walked towards Kazuya.
He pulled the boy after him and continued walking while taking out his phone and dialing Nakamaru’s number.
- Jin…please…stop…Jin…, Kazuya pleaded as he tried to keep up with the other. Jin! It hurts! he shouted as well, as the pain expanded on his entire arm.
Akanishi stopped only then and looked back, realizing he had grabbed the boy with far too much strength. He didn’t talk, though. He just made Kazuya get inside the car that came to pick him up and kept quiet until they reached the same house they went to at the night of the fire.
Kamenashi was scared. Just as scared as when he was almost raped. So scared that he couldn’t talk either, too scared to move and far to embarrassed to say anything. The moment they reached Jin’s room, he just sank down to the floor and started crying.
Three pictures. Three pictures were more than enough to ruin his joy and make him sink into the pits of despair. Each photos was taken that day and it showed him. His red face and naked chest, his legs almost spread as a guy touched him. And because of the drug, he also looked aroused. However took the pictures choose the one’s that made him look like a slut, craving just for sex.
Akanishi kicked the table in front of him, making Kazuya startle and look at him even more scared than before. He was angry. He was more than angry. He was ready to kill and he wanted to. He wanted to kill whoever did that. Was his threat enough to make the students keep their mouth shut?
- Kazuya…, he softly spoke, leaning down toward the boy who was still standing on the floor. I’m sorry, I got angry. Forgive me, he sweetly spoke, brushing Kazuya’s hair and smiling at him.
- Uhm…, he only nodded, despite flinching a bit the moment the older one touched him.
Akanishi bit his lip and stood up, opening a pack of cigars, lighting one up so he could smoke it. It was too sudden. Way too sudden. Not even declaring Kazuya his lover was of any good. However was messing around with him had lots of guts.
- Jin..., Kazuya mumbled while raising his eyes to encounter Akanishi’s. Are you… will I stop being your lover now that we saw it didn’t help? He asked as he didn’t see any reaction coming from the older one.
Jin just let out a small “tsk” and continued smoking his cigar without replying. And what if he wasn’t the target? What if the one they were actually going after was Kamenashi? That made things even worse. Jin could deal if he was the one targeted, he had the means to, but if Kazuya was the target, then he couldn’t do much to protect him. A grin appeared on his face as he found a way to keep an eye on Kazuya.
Ueda sighed and looked at Ryo who was driving the car on their way to Akanishi. College was a mess after Jin left. Everyone became silent and started looking at Yamashita, as if they needed some sort of guidance from him and only split out when he repeated Jin’s words and agreed to them. Tatsuya thought it kind of made sense for them to wait whatever Pi had to say. He was, after all, Akanishi’s best friend. Things did quiet down but only when they were not around. Lots of people still commented on the photos, their origin and after Jin’s outburst, they started wondering why that Akanishi Jin cared so much about it.
- Don’t worry, Hime. Akanishi might be an idiot but he knows where he stands. He won’t let this go, Ryo assured the other, smiling a bit without turning around.
- That’s exactly my greatest fear. Ryo, stop the car.
Nishikido did as he was told and watched the older one as he got out of the car and leaned on the hood. He then followed with an intrigued look on his face. Ueda took a deep breath and finally looked at him.
- We know where we stand and not many know about us. I’m fine with my friends and yours knowing. But with Kazuya and Jin is not the same. They don’t have anything. If Jin is keeping Kazuya around only to make sure he won’t lose in front of his enemies, he will hurt Kazuya even more.
- What do you mean? Ryo asked confused.
- Kazuya really likes Jin. Not likes. He loves Jin. I can tell since he is my best friend. He is the youngest of us and the one we always watch and take care of. No matter what those strangers could do to him, nothing would hurt as much as it surely will if Jin breaks his heart, Ueda explained, looking carefully at the younger one.
Ryo looked down a bit and then brushed his teeth over his lips. He understood completely what Ueda meant. Love was like that. If Kazuya was in love with Jin, it could have hurt. If Akanishi had no real feelings and was doing all of it just so he wouldn’t lose, Kamenashi was going to be devastated. He understood. He probably would have felt the same if being in the same position. His relationship with Ueda hurt and they did have something.
- I’ll talk to Jin about it, he finally spoke, both knowing that was what Ueda wanted to hear and the right thing to do.
After the short talk they were back on their way and soon arrived at Akanishi’s place. Both Jin and Kazuya were waiting in the living room, with grim looks on their faces.
Kazuya smiled a bit as he saw his best friend and immediately stood up, greeting Tat-chan.
The plan was the following. Since Ueda lived by himself, supported by Nishikido Ryo, Kamenashi was going to lie to his parents and say he was going to live with Tatsuya but actually move into Jin’s house. He was going to live with Jin until it all went away.
Kazuya both loved and hated the idea. Living with Jin gave him the perfect opportunity to get closer to the older one and make him fall for him but if it was all a lie, it was pointless. He waited for his friend to leave so that he could talk to Jin. He was really thankful to Tat-chan for everything, even for lying to his parents and being by his side when his own relationship with Ryo could have been endangered.
Tat-chan felt a bit of jealousy while looking at the two of them. Even thought they basically had nothing, they looked closer and more attached to each other than he ever looked with Ryo. Despite not having a relationship, both looked as if they had one. The only thing he had with Ryo was sex. Sex and his own feelings and that meant basically nothing. What Jin and Kazuya had seemed more real that what he could ever have with Ryo. Realizing that made his heart ache.
It was going to be like that. It even turned out like that after they left the two of them alone. As usual, he went to Ryo’s place and slept with him. It started feeling empty. But not as empty as when he heard the message by a girl who called Nishikido.
“I heard what you said about us getting married. I can’t wait to talk to you tomorrow. Kisses! “
Even the little he had with Ryo fell apart at that moment. His jealousy took over and he deleted all mentions of the message but he just couldn’t stand being there.
Why was he doing all that? He entered the silly thing because of a deal, fell in love with Nishikido and now was suffering like an idiot. For a second he thought it would be better if he’d stop sleeping with the other, better if nothing would have ever happened between them.
He just strands out of the house and starts walking, just walking not heading anywhere and not wanting to be anywhere.
He hoped Kazuya would be happy but he also hopped he would have something like that. He wanted something like Jin and Kamenashi had. At some point he decided. He loved the breeze and the sea so he went to Chiba. He wanted to see only water in front of him and calm himself. It felt nice feeling that strong wind brushing every single part of his body. He had many things to think of. He had to figure out who was targeting Jin or Kazuya, who took the photos and why. And he didn’t like at all Ryo’s confession, that it could be one of their friends doing that. He heard of it. That only they knew about that room so it had to be one of them, but he couldn’t understand it. Why would any of Jin’s friends want to hurt him?
As he thought of that, he leaned forward and blinked a few times as he saw a tall, blond haired guy doing something on board of a yacht. He recognized him. It was Taguchi Junnosuke, one of Jin’s friends.
Ueda clapped his hands once and decided he should talk to the other so he walked closer and put the brightest smile he had ever shown anyone.
- Ah…Ueda-kun! Taguchi noticed him as well and started waving while approaching the newcomer.
- What are you doing here? Ueda asked, curious and not at the same time.
- Oh… I often have a lot of free time so I come here. Want to join?
Taguchi knew it was too fast but he couldn’t back out. He had to do something no matter how painful it might have ended up. There was no purpose in hurting Jin and Kazuya if Ryo and Ueda would have helped them every time.
He smiled when his offer was accepted and then looked around, trying to figure out what was the best thing to do. He couldn’t call Yamashita and tell him that Ueda Tatsuya was with him. It would have been too suspicious.
For both their surprise, they started enjoying the time on the yacht. Taguchi even took it for a small trip while the older one just looked curiously at him. It was the first time Ueda actually saw anyone sailing but he had to admit it looked beautifully. The wind got stronger but Taguchi was a good sailor so they were enjoying it.
- Can I try? He asked at some point, way to excited to stay still. It looked fun, like too much fun.
- Sure. I’ll be here just in case, the other promised, taking only a few steps back.
- When did you start doing this? Ueda asked, a big smile crossing his face as both his hands touched the steering wheel.
- When I was younger. It calms me down so I come here when I need time to myself.
- I wish I could have something like this too, he just whispered, looking at the blue dazzling water that surrounded the small yacht.
- You can if you want to. Come whenever you want, Taguchi smiled brightly, this time for real.
- Really? Thanks, Taguchi-kun!
Why he felt so happy was beyond his understanding. He didn’t even think of Ryo or the problems his friend was having. He was having fun with Taguchi and didn’t really want to end it. A bit more, just a bit more would have been just nice.
- Call me Junno, the other smiled again, catching the steering wheel right before Ueda lost control of it.
- Then I’m Ueda. Or better…Tat-chan. Call me that, the older replied, turning his head around to look at the other.
Both stopped for a few seconds and just looked at each other. Ueda was feeling weird. He could really remember when was the last time he felt so happy without having to do anything preposterous to get it. It was genuine happiness and he liked it. He just smiled at Junno and saw the other smiling back, and he felt good once more. If only he could have that with Ryo.
A knot build up in his stomach as he remembered it. Ryo. Ryo who was getting married, or so the message said. Kazuya could still get to be with Jin, but he was already losing Nishikido. It was pointless. Maybe something old had to end for something new to start. Maybe he had enough.
He blinked once and opened his eyes wide as he felt a pair of soft lips touching his and brushing them slowly. He didn’t reply not fought back because he didn’t have to. Junno quickly stepped back and apologized, saying he got taken away by the moment.
A tear ran down Ueda’s cheek as he realized he wished he could have something like that with Ryo. True, something old had to come to an end for something new to start. So he got up on his toes and places a kiss on the other’s lips, not just brushing them but actually capturing them between his.
And before he knew it, he was in Junno’s arms, kissing each other passionately.
Kazuya let out a small sigh and bit his lower lip as he got a step closer to Jin. He didn’t knew how to put it or what to say exactly but he had to say something so he just gathered up his courage and got another step closer.
- Stop that, will ya? Jin begged, getting a bit pissed off because of the constant walk and stop.
- Jin..is it really okay like this? I mean…those photos and…, he shuttered, remembering those photos, the way they looked, what they showed and what people said.
Jin smiled bitterly and grabbed Kazuya’s hand, letting him sit on his lap while circling his waist with his arm. The sight of Kazuya turned out to be too dear for him to fight it. Maybe Kazuya was indeed precious to him. It had to be like that since his heart ached in pain every time he would remember what those bastards did.
He placed a small kiss on Kazuya’s cheek, one that made the boy pull back in surprise. It was a cute kiss, one that Kamenashi never felt coming from Jin.
- Don’t worry about it. I promise to protect you. But, Kazuya…, his tone of voice suddenly turned more serious.
- Ji..n? Kazuya shuttered, noticing it.
- From now on…it’s going to be hell. It could get worse. Much worse. They could beat you up, try to rape you again or maybe threaten to kill you. They could harm you much more than you think. I’m not willing to risk that. I can’t know what they want or who is doing this. I don’t know anything anymore. Kazuya…, he bit his lower lip, taking both of the boy’s hands into his, while looking at the younger one. You could get away from it if you leave me and break all ties with me.
- Jin, I …I don…
- Kazu…, all can go away if you are not close to me anymore. It could. I can’t promise but it might. Are you willing to risk going through all that? Can you?
Jin voice made him want to cry. Sure, remembering the moment he almost got raped made him want to cover his ears and hide somewhere in the dark, seeing those photos made him want to throw up and hit himself, but Jin was there every single time. Jin helped him as he promised. If Jin was going to promise to protect him, then he was willing to take whatever risk.
- Will you be there for me? If they rape me... would you still want to make love to me? If they’d beat me...will you beat them up as well? If they take my life...would you take theirs? He asked calmly, caressing Akanishi’s cheeks.
- Of course. I will do anything to protect you. I will always be here for you. I promise. Why, I don’t know. But it feels like the right thing to do so I will. I promise. I won’t abandon you. I won't.
Kazuya smiled and placed a kiss on Jin’s lips. Maybe he was indeed a lover. Maybe he just needed to make the other realize that. Since Jin promised, he was going to believe him. He knew it and felt it. Akanishi Jin wasn’t going to back down on his promise no matter what.
Akanishi lifted Kazuya and embraced him as he slowly picked him up and headed towards his bed. Well, not his bed anymore. It was going to be theirs. Too bad he owed that to a bunch of disgusting photos. A new feeling was making room in his heart. A pleasant feeling for that matter. One that made him feel happy and insecure at the same time. The moment the photos showed he lost it and it felt as if nothing was good anymore, as if dying would be better but the second he touched Kazuya and saw his smiling face, everything felt worth it.
Maybe he would have done even more for Kamenashi Kazuya. Maybe he would have even killed for him. Yeah…he would have killed whoever tried to harm him again, be it a stranger or a friend. While kissing and hugging the younger one, he felt so capable of killing the enemy that a chill went down his own spine and he got a bit scared of himself. He stood up and just watched Kazuya who now look puzzled at him.
- Anything…, he whispered, as he got to the terrifying conclusion that he would indeed kill for the younger one.
Let’s just all hope he won’t have to.
Nakamaru had finished putting the entire luggage back on the big bus that brought them there and then headed straight towards his master to tell him. He went up the stairs and all the way to Akanishi’s room but stopped as soon as he saw the door a bit opened. He peeked inside and saw both his boss and Kamenashi hugging each other. Such a lovely sight made butterflies rumble inside his stomach. The way Akanishi was holding the younger one, with both his arms wrapped around that slim waist, sometimes patting the boy’s hair and sometimes saying something he could hear, was completely different from the Akanishi Jin he knew.
Nakamaru smiled for himself and turned around, deciding to wait for the two to finish talking and not interrupt them. It was a far too adorable sight to ruin.
Kazuya chuckled and squeezed the older one even stronger as he was embraced. Placing his head on Jin’s chest and having his waist surrounded by warm and safe arms, made him feel really good. He could have stayed like that for hours and hours.
- Do we have a deal? Jin asked slowly, placing a small kiss near Kazuya’s right ear.
- Yeah…if anything happens I’ll call you right away. I promised, the boy smiled, wondering how protective could the other turn. For the past week, Jin had been like his bodyguard, following him around and making sure nothing bad happens anymore and that made him happy.
He was happy having Jin always by his side but a bit of pain was still present as well. His relationship with Akanishi wasn’t quite defined. Their “lovers’ status might have been set only for the soul purpose of having him safe and not because it was real, but couldn’t he make it real?
As he thought of it, he hoped he could make the older one actually fall for him. To turn the simple “lovers’ status meant to protect him into a reality and to actually become one. That was going to be his aim.
Jin didn’t act like Kazuya wasn’t his lover not even one second. On their way to the bus he rented specifically for the trip, he kept holding the boy’s hand, once they got on they set next to each other, still holding hands, and from time to time he would turn to Kazuya and smile at him. He went as far as falling asleep on the boy’s shoulder and cuddling like a little baby in a bed closer to Kamenashi’s body.
They even decided to meet up before going to college and arrive at the same time but the rest couldn’t keep their mouths closed so it ended up in a big gathering right before classes. Silently, Jin wished he could spend more time with Kazuya alone.
As expected, they all meet up at the front gate. Kazuya was really happy. The moment he got home he just crashed in his bed and tugged his pillow, wishing it was Jin instead. Was it that how being in love felt? It was a bittersweet feeling but a nice one. He liked being in love. He liked being in love with Jin. He came to school with that thought in mind. He really was hoping to enjoy their next days as now he held the title of “lover” and was close to Jin, which meant he could actually make it reality.
Both him and Jin were smiling happily as the main door to the college opened. Ryo and Ueda were at their usual, pretending to fight but looking carefully around them, Yoko felt a bit left outside as Pi and Taguchi seemed to have something going as well.
Hell broke loose. Kazuya dropped his backpack at the ground, Jin just stopped everything he did and stared, Ryo blinked in disbelief, Ueda gasped and got angry while Yoko just let out a big “WOW”. Pi and Taguchi were being quiet and looking straight in front of them. The rest of the students looked at Kazuya and started talking about him.
- Isn’t he the one? One said.
- Such a slut… , added another.
- Can’t believe it. He was the last I’d expect that from, said another, all of them looking at the boy.
Kazuya started trembling and bit his lower lip as he looked at the three photos spread on the notice board. He gulped and fearfully looked at the one next to him. Jin just clenched his fists, grit his teeth and launched towards the board, ripping those photos and throwing them away. Kamenashi covered his mouth immediately and let out a small cry as he felt he world crushing on top of him.
- Who was it?! Akanishi shouted, looking around him as if he wanted to kill every single one there.
- We…we don’t know…, answered a student.
Jin went insane. He grabbed one of the guys by the collar and pulled him up, kicking him in the stomach while at it. Sure, Pi and Ryo tried to stop him but they couldn’t. They didn’t really want to anyway. Kazuya started yelling at Jin, telling him to stop but the older couldn’t hear him at all.
In just a few seconds, he grabbed the guy and kicked him again, smashing him into one of the table nearby.
- Dare make one comment about this and I’ll kill you. Any of you! He shouted again, looking at the one’s around him as he tossed the guy aside and walked towards Kazuya.
He pulled the boy after him and continued walking while taking out his phone and dialing Nakamaru’s number.
- Jin…please…stop…Jin…, Kazuya pleaded as he tried to keep up with the other. Jin! It hurts! he shouted as well, as the pain expanded on his entire arm.
Akanishi stopped only then and looked back, realizing he had grabbed the boy with far too much strength. He didn’t talk, though. He just made Kazuya get inside the car that came to pick him up and kept quiet until they reached the same house they went to at the night of the fire.
Kamenashi was scared. Just as scared as when he was almost raped. So scared that he couldn’t talk either, too scared to move and far to embarrassed to say anything. The moment they reached Jin’s room, he just sank down to the floor and started crying.
Three pictures. Three pictures were more than enough to ruin his joy and make him sink into the pits of despair. Each photos was taken that day and it showed him. His red face and naked chest, his legs almost spread as a guy touched him. And because of the drug, he also looked aroused. However took the pictures choose the one’s that made him look like a slut, craving just for sex.
Akanishi kicked the table in front of him, making Kazuya startle and look at him even more scared than before. He was angry. He was more than angry. He was ready to kill and he wanted to. He wanted to kill whoever did that. Was his threat enough to make the students keep their mouth shut?
- Kazuya…, he softly spoke, leaning down toward the boy who was still standing on the floor. I’m sorry, I got angry. Forgive me, he sweetly spoke, brushing Kazuya’s hair and smiling at him.
- Uhm…, he only nodded, despite flinching a bit the moment the older one touched him.
Akanishi bit his lip and stood up, opening a pack of cigars, lighting one up so he could smoke it. It was too sudden. Way too sudden. Not even declaring Kazuya his lover was of any good. However was messing around with him had lots of guts.
- Jin..., Kazuya mumbled while raising his eyes to encounter Akanishi’s. Are you… will I stop being your lover now that we saw it didn’t help? He asked as he didn’t see any reaction coming from the older one.
Jin just let out a small “tsk” and continued smoking his cigar without replying. And what if he wasn’t the target? What if the one they were actually going after was Kamenashi? That made things even worse. Jin could deal if he was the one targeted, he had the means to, but if Kazuya was the target, then he couldn’t do much to protect him. A grin appeared on his face as he found a way to keep an eye on Kazuya.
Ueda sighed and looked at Ryo who was driving the car on their way to Akanishi. College was a mess after Jin left. Everyone became silent and started looking at Yamashita, as if they needed some sort of guidance from him and only split out when he repeated Jin’s words and agreed to them. Tatsuya thought it kind of made sense for them to wait whatever Pi had to say. He was, after all, Akanishi’s best friend. Things did quiet down but only when they were not around. Lots of people still commented on the photos, their origin and after Jin’s outburst, they started wondering why that Akanishi Jin cared so much about it.
- Don’t worry, Hime. Akanishi might be an idiot but he knows where he stands. He won’t let this go, Ryo assured the other, smiling a bit without turning around.
- That’s exactly my greatest fear. Ryo, stop the car.
Nishikido did as he was told and watched the older one as he got out of the car and leaned on the hood. He then followed with an intrigued look on his face. Ueda took a deep breath and finally looked at him.
- We know where we stand and not many know about us. I’m fine with my friends and yours knowing. But with Kazuya and Jin is not the same. They don’t have anything. If Jin is keeping Kazuya around only to make sure he won’t lose in front of his enemies, he will hurt Kazuya even more.
- What do you mean? Ryo asked confused.
- Kazuya really likes Jin. Not likes. He loves Jin. I can tell since he is my best friend. He is the youngest of us and the one we always watch and take care of. No matter what those strangers could do to him, nothing would hurt as much as it surely will if Jin breaks his heart, Ueda explained, looking carefully at the younger one.
Ryo looked down a bit and then brushed his teeth over his lips. He understood completely what Ueda meant. Love was like that. If Kazuya was in love with Jin, it could have hurt. If Akanishi had no real feelings and was doing all of it just so he wouldn’t lose, Kamenashi was going to be devastated. He understood. He probably would have felt the same if being in the same position. His relationship with Ueda hurt and they did have something.
- I’ll talk to Jin about it, he finally spoke, both knowing that was what Ueda wanted to hear and the right thing to do.
After the short talk they were back on their way and soon arrived at Akanishi’s place. Both Jin and Kazuya were waiting in the living room, with grim looks on their faces.
Kazuya smiled a bit as he saw his best friend and immediately stood up, greeting Tat-chan.
The plan was the following. Since Ueda lived by himself, supported by Nishikido Ryo, Kamenashi was going to lie to his parents and say he was going to live with Tatsuya but actually move into Jin’s house. He was going to live with Jin until it all went away.
Kazuya both loved and hated the idea. Living with Jin gave him the perfect opportunity to get closer to the older one and make him fall for him but if it was all a lie, it was pointless. He waited for his friend to leave so that he could talk to Jin. He was really thankful to Tat-chan for everything, even for lying to his parents and being by his side when his own relationship with Ryo could have been endangered.
Tat-chan felt a bit of jealousy while looking at the two of them. Even thought they basically had nothing, they looked closer and more attached to each other than he ever looked with Ryo. Despite not having a relationship, both looked as if they had one. The only thing he had with Ryo was sex. Sex and his own feelings and that meant basically nothing. What Jin and Kazuya had seemed more real that what he could ever have with Ryo. Realizing that made his heart ache.
It was going to be like that. It even turned out like that after they left the two of them alone. As usual, he went to Ryo’s place and slept with him. It started feeling empty. But not as empty as when he heard the message by a girl who called Nishikido.
“I heard what you said about us getting married. I can’t wait to talk to you tomorrow. Kisses! “
Even the little he had with Ryo fell apart at that moment. His jealousy took over and he deleted all mentions of the message but he just couldn’t stand being there.
Why was he doing all that? He entered the silly thing because of a deal, fell in love with Nishikido and now was suffering like an idiot. For a second he thought it would be better if he’d stop sleeping with the other, better if nothing would have ever happened between them.
He just strands out of the house and starts walking, just walking not heading anywhere and not wanting to be anywhere.
He hoped Kazuya would be happy but he also hopped he would have something like that. He wanted something like Jin and Kamenashi had. At some point he decided. He loved the breeze and the sea so he went to Chiba. He wanted to see only water in front of him and calm himself. It felt nice feeling that strong wind brushing every single part of his body. He had many things to think of. He had to figure out who was targeting Jin or Kazuya, who took the photos and why. And he didn’t like at all Ryo’s confession, that it could be one of their friends doing that. He heard of it. That only they knew about that room so it had to be one of them, but he couldn’t understand it. Why would any of Jin’s friends want to hurt him?
As he thought of that, he leaned forward and blinked a few times as he saw a tall, blond haired guy doing something on board of a yacht. He recognized him. It was Taguchi Junnosuke, one of Jin’s friends.
Ueda clapped his hands once and decided he should talk to the other so he walked closer and put the brightest smile he had ever shown anyone.
- Ah…Ueda-kun! Taguchi noticed him as well and started waving while approaching the newcomer.
- What are you doing here? Ueda asked, curious and not at the same time.
- Oh… I often have a lot of free time so I come here. Want to join?
Taguchi knew it was too fast but he couldn’t back out. He had to do something no matter how painful it might have ended up. There was no purpose in hurting Jin and Kazuya if Ryo and Ueda would have helped them every time.
He smiled when his offer was accepted and then looked around, trying to figure out what was the best thing to do. He couldn’t call Yamashita and tell him that Ueda Tatsuya was with him. It would have been too suspicious.
For both their surprise, they started enjoying the time on the yacht. Taguchi even took it for a small trip while the older one just looked curiously at him. It was the first time Ueda actually saw anyone sailing but he had to admit it looked beautifully. The wind got stronger but Taguchi was a good sailor so they were enjoying it.
- Can I try? He asked at some point, way to excited to stay still. It looked fun, like too much fun.
- Sure. I’ll be here just in case, the other promised, taking only a few steps back.
- When did you start doing this? Ueda asked, a big smile crossing his face as both his hands touched the steering wheel.
- When I was younger. It calms me down so I come here when I need time to myself.
- I wish I could have something like this too, he just whispered, looking at the blue dazzling water that surrounded the small yacht.
- You can if you want to. Come whenever you want, Taguchi smiled brightly, this time for real.
- Really? Thanks, Taguchi-kun!
Why he felt so happy was beyond his understanding. He didn’t even think of Ryo or the problems his friend was having. He was having fun with Taguchi and didn’t really want to end it. A bit more, just a bit more would have been just nice.
- Call me Junno, the other smiled again, catching the steering wheel right before Ueda lost control of it.
- Then I’m Ueda. Or better…Tat-chan. Call me that, the older replied, turning his head around to look at the other.
Both stopped for a few seconds and just looked at each other. Ueda was feeling weird. He could really remember when was the last time he felt so happy without having to do anything preposterous to get it. It was genuine happiness and he liked it. He just smiled at Junno and saw the other smiling back, and he felt good once more. If only he could have that with Ryo.
A knot build up in his stomach as he remembered it. Ryo. Ryo who was getting married, or so the message said. Kazuya could still get to be with Jin, but he was already losing Nishikido. It was pointless. Maybe something old had to end for something new to start. Maybe he had enough.
He blinked once and opened his eyes wide as he felt a pair of soft lips touching his and brushing them slowly. He didn’t reply not fought back because he didn’t have to. Junno quickly stepped back and apologized, saying he got taken away by the moment.
A tear ran down Ueda’s cheek as he realized he wished he could have something like that with Ryo. True, something old had to come to an end for something new to start. So he got up on his toes and places a kiss on the other’s lips, not just brushing them but actually capturing them between his.
And before he knew it, he was in Junno’s arms, kissing each other passionately.
Kazuya let out a small sigh and bit his lower lip as he got a step closer to Jin. He didn’t knew how to put it or what to say exactly but he had to say something so he just gathered up his courage and got another step closer.
- Stop that, will ya? Jin begged, getting a bit pissed off because of the constant walk and stop.
- Jin..is it really okay like this? I mean…those photos and…, he shuttered, remembering those photos, the way they looked, what they showed and what people said.
Jin smiled bitterly and grabbed Kazuya’s hand, letting him sit on his lap while circling his waist with his arm. The sight of Kazuya turned out to be too dear for him to fight it. Maybe Kazuya was indeed precious to him. It had to be like that since his heart ached in pain every time he would remember what those bastards did.
He placed a small kiss on Kazuya’s cheek, one that made the boy pull back in surprise. It was a cute kiss, one that Kamenashi never felt coming from Jin.
- Don’t worry about it. I promise to protect you. But, Kazuya…, his tone of voice suddenly turned more serious.
- Ji..n? Kazuya shuttered, noticing it.
- From now on…it’s going to be hell. It could get worse. Much worse. They could beat you up, try to rape you again or maybe threaten to kill you. They could harm you much more than you think. I’m not willing to risk that. I can’t know what they want or who is doing this. I don’t know anything anymore. Kazuya…, he bit his lower lip, taking both of the boy’s hands into his, while looking at the younger one. You could get away from it if you leave me and break all ties with me.
- Jin, I …I don…
- Kazu…, all can go away if you are not close to me anymore. It could. I can’t promise but it might. Are you willing to risk going through all that? Can you?
Jin voice made him want to cry. Sure, remembering the moment he almost got raped made him want to cover his ears and hide somewhere in the dark, seeing those photos made him want to throw up and hit himself, but Jin was there every single time. Jin helped him as he promised. If Jin was going to promise to protect him, then he was willing to take whatever risk.
- Will you be there for me? If they rape me... would you still want to make love to me? If they’d beat me...will you beat them up as well? If they take my life...would you take theirs? He asked calmly, caressing Akanishi’s cheeks.
- Of course. I will do anything to protect you. I will always be here for you. I promise. Why, I don’t know. But it feels like the right thing to do so I will. I promise. I won’t abandon you. I won't.
Kazuya smiled and placed a kiss on Jin’s lips. Maybe he was indeed a lover. Maybe he just needed to make the other realize that. Since Jin promised, he was going to believe him. He knew it and felt it. Akanishi Jin wasn’t going to back down on his promise no matter what.
Akanishi lifted Kazuya and embraced him as he slowly picked him up and headed towards his bed. Well, not his bed anymore. It was going to be theirs. Too bad he owed that to a bunch of disgusting photos. A new feeling was making room in his heart. A pleasant feeling for that matter. One that made him feel happy and insecure at the same time. The moment the photos showed he lost it and it felt as if nothing was good anymore, as if dying would be better but the second he touched Kazuya and saw his smiling face, everything felt worth it.
Maybe he would have done even more for Kamenashi Kazuya. Maybe he would have even killed for him. Yeah…he would have killed whoever tried to harm him again, be it a stranger or a friend. While kissing and hugging the younger one, he felt so capable of killing the enemy that a chill went down his own spine and he got a bit scared of himself. He stood up and just watched Kazuya who now look puzzled at him.
- Anything…, he whispered, as he got to the terrifying conclusion that he would indeed kill for the younger one.
Let’s just all hope he won’t have to.