Memories
Memories. I wish I could erase them. Never read other people's old Live journal comments. It's made me smile at the good times and then become depressed now. It's my own fault. I just wish I'd realized it then instead of now. I'm sorry really doesn't cut it just as u said. I don't know how to say it any other way. My heart breaks. I don't know how to handle it; I was always the one who got screwed over. I'm bad at handling emotions. I care. I'm sorry. This makes no sense but yet perfect sense. Need to erase my memories, erase you. I can't cause I do care. It hurts either way. What to do now. I don't know. I'm lost. I'm sorry for hurting you. God, I hope you don't read this. I miss you. I'm sorry I do for the sake of our friendship. I want a good guy for once. It doesn't matter either way. You alreadly erased me. My fault, I know. I need to learn how to swallow it, how to act like it doesn't matter. Then it won't hurt. You were right. About alot. Maybe you're right about I can't handle this. It's b/c I care. If I lost you completely, I couldn't handle that either. Either way it's my fault. Either way I care. Either way I'm lost. Either way it hurts. This is random and no one will understand, but it's ok no one reads mine anyway. Bye.