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yesterday at school, the guy that i like put his arm around me as we walked down the hallway between the classes we have together and talked to me. but, in chemistry, me and my best friend, who i also like, traded sweatshirts and talked the whole time. course, we do that everyday. today, the guy i like barely talked to me and my best friend traded sweatshirts back. i wanted to keep his. a good friend of mine who is a girl has been asking me about him lately and yesterday asked me if he had a girlfriend or liked anyone. i don't want her to like him because i like him, but i don't think he thinks of me like that because we've been friends for so long that that's just how he thinks of me. no one would understand and i don't wanna tell my mom because she's good friends with his mom and would tell him. but, i also really like the other guy and i don't like the way that he plays with my emotions by flirting with me one day and not talking to me the next. needless to say, i'm over the ex, but he won't even talk to me at his locker anymore, where i still keep my books, he's dressed up every day since i found out (even though he doesn't know i know), and he smells different. (his old cologne smelled better, but i'm not gonna tell him that. if he wants to date a two-faced bitch, then he can have at). i wish i knew if one of the two guys liked me, and then i could decide. of course, i have an in to one, but i think his best friend likes me so i don't want to use him to get to his friend if he likes me because that would suck if someone did it to me. that's not the guy who's my best friend, he's the guy who i've liked for longer, but i haven't dreamed about kissing him twice. i just wish that guys could be simple because i don't want to like two guys that have no interest in me as more than a friend. maybe i will tell the other guy that i like his friend and see if that gets me hooked up with him. maybe i'm just going crazy wanting a boyfriend so bad, but i can't take being single right now, i really just want someone to love, and them to love me back. oh well, i'll figure SOMETHING out.