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What's up internet?
Well I have been living off the grid for a while. I have been staying from place to place. Can't complain, I know some hospitable hosts. Good friends are a blessing. I am glad I didn't take them for granted when things were easier, it pays off in the long run. I have gone to a couple of diversion things, not so bad. I get my car back in one week. I am stoked for that. I applied at Plaid Pantry, I talked to the manager and it's promising. I don't think I really want it though. I asked my dad to find out what employment office I have to go to to apply at Nabisco. I need more than $7.50 an hour at a shitty convenience store. And $14 working at a factory with my old man sounds a lot better to me. It would cut all of my calculations for getting debt paid off in half time-wise, and that gives me a thick rubbery one.
Life is fine. I like life.
I met a girl. She is awesome. Well I guess I already knew her, but I met the real her. I like her. I don't know where to go from here with it, but as soon as things are straightened out in my life it should be a good situation. If she stays around that long, that is.
I can't wait for life to start again. I feel like I have been trapped under some imaginary force field for a long time. Fear is a bitch. Fear of rejection in work situations and relationships. Fear of meeting new people. Fear of being left. Fear of doing nothing forever. Fuck fear. Live.
Well I have been living off the grid for a while. I have been staying from place to place. Can't complain, I know some hospitable hosts. Good friends are a blessing. I am glad I didn't take them for granted when things were easier, it pays off in the long run. I have gone to a couple of diversion things, not so bad. I get my car back in one week. I am stoked for that. I applied at Plaid Pantry, I talked to the manager and it's promising. I don't think I really want it though. I asked my dad to find out what employment office I have to go to to apply at Nabisco. I need more than $7.50 an hour at a shitty convenience store. And $14 working at a factory with my old man sounds a lot better to me. It would cut all of my calculations for getting debt paid off in half time-wise, and that gives me a thick rubbery one.
Life is fine. I like life.
I met a girl. She is awesome. Well I guess I already knew her, but I met the real her. I like her. I don't know where to go from here with it, but as soon as things are straightened out in my life it should be a good situation. If she stays around that long, that is.
I can't wait for life to start again. I feel like I have been trapped under some imaginary force field for a long time. Fear is a bitch. Fear of rejection in work situations and relationships. Fear of meeting new people. Fear of being left. Fear of doing nothing forever. Fuck fear. Live.