to bleed is something easy
fuck, i hate being sad. i've been so manic depressive lately, and i hate the depressive part of it.
fuck what the hell is wrong? what do i have to be sad about? everytime i'm happy something comes up to ruin it..and very little is helping to make me stop dwelling on shit that will never change and i could have never changed.
i heard some new things about my katie..i'm sad, i wanted to cry in driver's ed. theres so much shit that i wish would never happen.
and yet, all this morning was good.
i woke up to cof, and layed in bed til like 6:30 then got coffee and went to school where i tweaked with kalina, aubrey, chelsea, and shay and jerry and all the innocent bystanders. FUCK I HATE LELAND!! that fucking whore, i swear to god i'm never talking to his stupid fucking ass again, the little prick.
so i was happy all morning, i've had so much to say all day, most of it non-sensical and ending up humourous. lol.
shay and i had so much fun in german, i loved it. her panther cut off my panther's arm but my panther still loves hers. its sweet really.
anyways, i miss my nate....fucking talk to me!!!!
kalina dropped her phone in a glass of milk and killed it, so we're having a funeral for it tomorrow..how sad *tear*
oh yeah, we just hung out all afternoon, it was fun. made up xmas songs it was also fun. hahahahaha
fuck what the hell is wrong? what do i have to be sad about? everytime i'm happy something comes up to ruin it..and very little is helping to make me stop dwelling on shit that will never change and i could have never changed.
i heard some new things about my katie..i'm sad, i wanted to cry in driver's ed. theres so much shit that i wish would never happen.
and yet, all this morning was good.
i woke up to cof, and layed in bed til like 6:30 then got coffee and went to school where i tweaked with kalina, aubrey, chelsea, and shay and jerry and all the innocent bystanders. FUCK I HATE LELAND!! that fucking whore, i swear to god i'm never talking to his stupid fucking ass again, the little prick.
so i was happy all morning, i've had so much to say all day, most of it non-sensical and ending up humourous. lol.
shay and i had so much fun in german, i loved it. her panther cut off my panther's arm but my panther still loves hers. its sweet really.
anyways, i miss my nate....fucking talk to me!!!!
kalina dropped her phone in a glass of milk and killed it, so we're having a funeral for it tomorrow..how sad *tear*
oh yeah, we just hung out all afternoon, it was fun. made up xmas songs it was also fun. hahahahaha