.. your nothing compared to him.
i try to believe myself when i know it feels right
when i always think positive when i put up a fight
and the only one to know that this is true
is the person standing right infront of you
its hard to think back to the words that i said
when there were so many things going thru my head
but i never spoke up and that makes me mad
so i let go of the things that i could have had
there will be one day when the wind doesnt blow back
and a day the train will loose all of its tracks
but until then i need to have my own time
and when im ready youll have your time to be mine
- Amanda Domingos
yee, my friend amanda wrote that bitch for me, it's so wicked good. thx bella.
things have been soooo screwed up lately.
i love york, by the way. but besides that... i have 4 guys right now. FOUR. and yet the only one that i can seem to think about is him.. i don't understand.. we broke up, why can't i just get over it? i have such a bad time dealing with this kinda shit.
first off there is peter, the ultimate guy. such a sweetheart most amazing guy in the entire world, and i like him alot. but i think that we're at a point right now where it is justttt strickly really good friends but i think we have a lot of feelings for eachother. i think we're both a little too scared right now and its far too soon to rush things. he has this friend that likes him a lot, he asked me if he should give her a chance? he asked me permission it was so cute. i mean, i told him that if he liked her then go for it, but if there is doubt there then it's not right. he's so great .. and he knows im not ready.
then there is eli, such a great guy, really cute. went to the pub with him last night danced the night away, made out a little ! it was a good time, he's cute, likes me alot, dont know if i like him, stacy likes him but sarah really doesnt hahaha, so i dont know i guess only time will tell.
last night jon slept over, nothing happened though. we're really tight thoguh he calls almost every day and he's such a nice guy. i think i like him on more of a friend basis though. i m not even sure.
thennnn there is jay, i mean i met him at the pub last night when eli went off with his friends for a bit, he has to be the funniest guy i have ever met in my entire life and he isn't leaving my mind, for some reason i just wanted to hang out with him the entire night but when eli came back i was like ebliged to hang out with him. he's such a nice guy. wow... he knows brad, i think i might try to get his email off brad ... wicked guy. i wanna hang out with him again for sure.
ok, so right now, im so confused, i like all of these guys, and someone else that i know if i mention everyone in the world will down right kick me in the balls.
WHAT DO I DO???????????
im such a retard.
i like them all, they are all so nice, and i have such a history of disaster.
maybe i should just be single for a bit.
i think thats the best route, only because i know that if i go out with one of these guys ( with the exception of peter) that i will always have "him" on my mind. yeah him, the one that i can't seem to get over. fuckin balls.
i wish things didnt end so shitty, i wish i could just call him up now and talk to him just like old times, he promised he would come visit me at york... i would love for him to come.
i guess we'll never know.
i think this afternoon of hungover-ness calls for some snuggling with a blankey and watching a movie, v went to go get me a sandwich. she has her boyfriend from sarnia here, he's such a freakin sweetheart, great guy im really happy for her. :)
until we meet again.
later days.
when i always think positive when i put up a fight
and the only one to know that this is true
is the person standing right infront of you
its hard to think back to the words that i said
when there were so many things going thru my head
but i never spoke up and that makes me mad
so i let go of the things that i could have had
there will be one day when the wind doesnt blow back
and a day the train will loose all of its tracks
but until then i need to have my own time
and when im ready youll have your time to be mine
- Amanda Domingos
yee, my friend amanda wrote that bitch for me, it's so wicked good. thx bella.
things have been soooo screwed up lately.
i love york, by the way. but besides that... i have 4 guys right now. FOUR. and yet the only one that i can seem to think about is him.. i don't understand.. we broke up, why can't i just get over it? i have such a bad time dealing with this kinda shit.
first off there is peter, the ultimate guy. such a sweetheart most amazing guy in the entire world, and i like him alot. but i think that we're at a point right now where it is justttt strickly really good friends but i think we have a lot of feelings for eachother. i think we're both a little too scared right now and its far too soon to rush things. he has this friend that likes him a lot, he asked me if he should give her a chance? he asked me permission it was so cute. i mean, i told him that if he liked her then go for it, but if there is doubt there then it's not right. he's so great .. and he knows im not ready.
then there is eli, such a great guy, really cute. went to the pub with him last night danced the night away, made out a little ! it was a good time, he's cute, likes me alot, dont know if i like him, stacy likes him but sarah really doesnt hahaha, so i dont know i guess only time will tell.
last night jon slept over, nothing happened though. we're really tight thoguh he calls almost every day and he's such a nice guy. i think i like him on more of a friend basis though. i m not even sure.
thennnn there is jay, i mean i met him at the pub last night when eli went off with his friends for a bit, he has to be the funniest guy i have ever met in my entire life and he isn't leaving my mind, for some reason i just wanted to hang out with him the entire night but when eli came back i was like ebliged to hang out with him. he's such a nice guy. wow... he knows brad, i think i might try to get his email off brad ... wicked guy. i wanna hang out with him again for sure.
ok, so right now, im so confused, i like all of these guys, and someone else that i know if i mention everyone in the world will down right kick me in the balls.
WHAT DO I DO???????????
im such a retard.
i like them all, they are all so nice, and i have such a history of disaster.
maybe i should just be single for a bit.
i think thats the best route, only because i know that if i go out with one of these guys ( with the exception of peter) that i will always have "him" on my mind. yeah him, the one that i can't seem to get over. fuckin balls.
i wish things didnt end so shitty, i wish i could just call him up now and talk to him just like old times, he promised he would come visit me at york... i would love for him to come.
i guess we'll never know.
i think this afternoon of hungover-ness calls for some snuggling with a blankey and watching a movie, v went to go get me a sandwich. she has her boyfriend from sarnia here, he's such a freakin sweetheart, great guy im really happy for her. :)
until we meet again.
later days.