its been a very long time...
It has been such a long time since I have updated this journal and too much has gone on for me to go into detail about everything.
In summary, I have been on a new spiritual path, finding out who i am, who i want to be, and who i want in my life. It is a long journey but I have learned so much about myself and I am still learning so very much. I have met such a wonderful person and I love being with her. She is looking for the same answers I am looking for, and in a way she has given me the answers to some of my questions already. She is like my spiritual soul mate, she enlightens me and challenges me in ways that no one else has. Is it odd that she is a girl? No not at all. Other people look down on me, my parents judge me, and some people just don't understand that I don't love her because she is a girl, that fact is to be overlooked. I love her because she is a wonderful person who helps me to be all i can be. She supports me in all my decisions even if they are a bit far-fetched at times. My family has not been too happy with my decisions lately, they look down on art history as being my major and i know that they hate the fact that the things i want to do are not on their straight and narrow path. I want to travel and meet new people, i want to go and help people. I want to do so many things that don't include business. Which is what i know they wanted me to do in the first place. But i was not meant to work in a cubicle. I am meant to be free and to enjoy the beauty of the world. I see that so clearly now!
The path i have chosen is not an easy one, but i know see that it is the one i must follow... it is the one i feel most myself on. I love the nature-based religion i am now studying, i love the people i am attracting to my life, i love the new ideas and goals i have been coming up with and setting for myself.
I will do something good with my life, and i don't care if it ends up being something my parents are proud to brag about to the rest of the family. I am confident in myself and in my ability to succeed in whatever i do and i know that i will achieve all that i want. I know that i will help people and in doing so learn so much about myself.
I want to reach my nirvana.
In summary, I have been on a new spiritual path, finding out who i am, who i want to be, and who i want in my life. It is a long journey but I have learned so much about myself and I am still learning so very much. I have met such a wonderful person and I love being with her. She is looking for the same answers I am looking for, and in a way she has given me the answers to some of my questions already. She is like my spiritual soul mate, she enlightens me and challenges me in ways that no one else has. Is it odd that she is a girl? No not at all. Other people look down on me, my parents judge me, and some people just don't understand that I don't love her because she is a girl, that fact is to be overlooked. I love her because she is a wonderful person who helps me to be all i can be. She supports me in all my decisions even if they are a bit far-fetched at times. My family has not been too happy with my decisions lately, they look down on art history as being my major and i know that they hate the fact that the things i want to do are not on their straight and narrow path. I want to travel and meet new people, i want to go and help people. I want to do so many things that don't include business. Which is what i know they wanted me to do in the first place. But i was not meant to work in a cubicle. I am meant to be free and to enjoy the beauty of the world. I see that so clearly now!
The path i have chosen is not an easy one, but i know see that it is the one i must follow... it is the one i feel most myself on. I love the nature-based religion i am now studying, i love the people i am attracting to my life, i love the new ideas and goals i have been coming up with and setting for myself.
I will do something good with my life, and i don't care if it ends up being something my parents are proud to brag about to the rest of the family. I am confident in myself and in my ability to succeed in whatever i do and i know that i will achieve all that i want. I know that i will help people and in doing so learn so much about myself.
I want to reach my nirvana.