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so heres whats been goin down. the last couple months have royally sucked balls but for whatever reason this last week has made things turn around a bit. ive been hanging out with some old friends that graduated before me, going out, going to movies. its fun. especially when the alternative is sitting at home. I got hired at Borders, and im also workin at my law office so thats 2 jobs. Homework keeps me busy in between shifts and classes so im just a busy little bee over here :) I went and saw the Exorcism of Emily Rose a few nights back with a friend, i was slightly disappointed though, it wasnt as scary as i was anticipating. oh well. I havent been to a movie in the theatre for months so it was really fun to go. im too broke to go for no reason. lets see, csun. well, csun is fun. i dont miss high school at all. i dont miss the drama, i dont miss the people i dont like, i dont miss any of it. it was fun, but its time to grow up. i have my handful of really close friends that i keep really close with and thats all i need. no boys, no drama. well, maybe a couple boys...haha. psh, no. i have like 9 chapters to read this weekend, vocabulary and section reviews, blah blah blah.
its really weird how things change. you grow up a certain way and you believe in certain things and you always do things a certain way. and then you see all the other ways people live their lives and the way they make themselves happy and you start thinkin that their way might work better than the one you've always known. so much for bein an individual right? :) i guess my point is that its kinda exciting to let things change. hang out with people you normally wouldnt, go places you wouldnt usually go, do things you usually wouldnt do. i didnt feel like i could do that in high school. theres somethin about high school that, looking back on it now, held me back. theres something about some of the people i knew and things that happened that, i dont know, make me question my judgment. i mean, i have no regrets, i had my first love in high school, and for anyone who knows me they know that thats more important than getting my diploma. :) theres a certain individuality that being in college makes me feel. im not tied down by what people assume about me and by what they think they know, and all that drama. its kinda like a fresh start, even though its only 5 miles away.
so i guess in most aspects im still exactly the same person i've always been, but theres somethin about startin school that has changed something. im not entirely sure what it is, maybe its the people i've gotten back in touch with and the friends that im starting to make. who knows, but i like it :)
~the one and only Debo*