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Someone I used to date came back. Dearest knows about it.
I just don't understand that you regret doing everything to me after so long. Now then you realise that those things you did hurt me, that was why I moved on. Moved on with my life & learned to forget you. No matter how much heartache you caused me, I accepted it & waited but you never did change. I gave up, gave up knowing that it will take years for you to change. & indeed I was right. Right from the very start. It took 4 years before you really changed.
Now, after 4 years of me being with that other someone you come back. Promising me good things. Saying that you've changed for the better & regretting what's left of yesterday. How am I supposed to react to all these when my heart is for someone else already? I never wanted to lose you before but you brought it upon yourself. Was it my fault that I did not wait? I don't think so. I'm already sick & tired of waiting. Waiting like there's tomorrow.
Indeed, you have changed. When we met, I never did believed that you will change to what you are right now. Looking hotter than before too. But it's really too bad that my heart belongs to that other someone right now. He has been there for me through thicks & thins. He never did complain about anything. He accepted me for what I am & respected my every decision.
You text me saying:
" I miss those days. How I wish we can rekindle those times."
Sometimes out of nowhere, text me saying:
" I miss you! "
Hah! Now you know how I felt before when I always wanted you to be there. Who was I before to you anyways, I was only the girl who you looked upon as the "spare tyre" while you were having fun back then clubbing, drinking, gambling & whatsoever-nots. You thought before that money was everything & the reason why I wanted you was money. Damn wrong I tell you! Damn wrong!
I am indeed grateful to His Almighty for showing you through the right path & being who you are now. I hope that you will remain like that & never go back to your old ways.
Like what I told u before:
" If you love that someone, let her go. For if you & her are meant to be together then fate shall bring you together. There is no point in forcing your way through it. Believe in Him, that's all you can do. "
Remember this, & if someone does cross your path & you know she is the one for you, move on, for I shall be happy for you. Let us now just stay as friends & nothing more scandalous.
I shall always be there throughout this friendship of ours.
For now, I shall have my heart for noone else but dearest. I shall always be there for him when he needs me just like how he has been for me. For to him is where my heart belongs.
*the rest are still unwritten*