The world......
Can be an awful place sometimes.
Tried posting via my ipad, but it said that my account isn't verified. WTF?
Been awhile since I posted & that's because life is so damn busy & stressful.
Mum is now living in a nursing home, as she now needs more care than we can provide at home. She's doing pretty good, & her mind is fine. It's her body that's breaking down. But the old chook is hanging in there! I visit at least three times a week after work, and also every weekend.
The home isn't too far from our place, and is really nice. But of course it's not home. We take mum out quite a bit, and also bring her home a lot over the weekends that I'm free. I cook lunch, and of course get no help from the men. Mum also participates in all the activities they have. I'm fact, she's been out more in the 6 months she's been there than she has in the past 3 years!
Most things now are left to me to do & I'm so tired.
Nut my biggest heartbreak is that I had to make the decision to let my baby go on the 26th august. Poor Bailey hadn't been doing too well for a few months, & he had a major sugar episode on the 23rd & ended up on hospital overnight. He was having seizures. We bought h home, but he was just too I'll. He couldn't walk properly, and was peeing on himself & wetting his bed all the time.
I could tell that he was suffering, so on the Sunday we had a family discussion - led by me - and decided to take him bake to the hospital. Thankfully mum was home, so she, dad & I took him. There really wasn't much more we could do for him.
So we ended his suffering. We had him privately cremated & bought him home, but I am shattered. Not coping at all well with his passing & I miss him so much. I've lost my baby, and he was a much loved family member. I still cry for him.
Also didnt help that in his grief, brother rat told me that I was killing him. That cut like a knife. I know he didn't really mean it, but I'll never forget how he made me feel.
Damn it's hard!
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