My mind My enemy
I hate that I think about him. Jeremy doesn't care about me anymore, why should I care about him? I should hate him, why don't I hate him? Our whole life together was a lie. Just one big lie. I have just recently begun to believe that ignorance is bliss. If he never told me that he didn't love me anymore, I would stil be in love with him. I would still be living my lie with a smile on my face and I would be happy. I wouldn't know the difference. During the day I am okay. I do plenty of things to get my mind off him. I have a million distractions. But, when I go to bed all I have is me and my thoughts, and my thoughts always go to him. Sleep used to be my favorite thing in the world, now it only brings me pain. I try to go out and find someone new, but that doesn't work either. With every guy I look at I think, "He isn't as good as Jeremy". and I walk away. I can't settle for less. But he isn't a good guy. Jeremy took me for granted and threw mw away. Why does my life still revolve around him... I hate myself