"Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!"
- Hunter S. Thompson

i'm in a really crazy place right now.
i have pretty much everything i want.
great girl, good friends, good relationship with my family, money in the bank, health, happiness, home, music toys, everything.

and yet

all i can wonder is: how long shall it last?

i ruin everything, it's just a matter of time.