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I can hear some wind outside, just barely, for just a few minutes if it comes at this time of midnight and ___ isn't here. oh no, furnace came on with a bang now, can't hear anything else.
so, for a couple of minutes I could hear the outside peace, and it was nice. thoughts just clear up so..
we need more of that. I need more of this -well, being able to hear the humanless outside, while inside. also with no constant noise-machine: I literally did not know until I was maybe 14 years old that the groaning I grew up with was ___ --when I put 2+2 together that the house AND the ship could not have the same starts, groans & creaks throughout all nights of the year whenever I was in either. It was just ___. When I figured that out, It felt like then, as it does to this day, that I lost many years of productive clear thinking +/sleeping due to the horror of snore. it's not just a regular groaning snorting snore of monotony, it's a crying begging whining "everyone come help me I'm dyinggggg, and neeed your attentionnnn!!" snore.
so, for a couple of minutes I could hear the outside peace, and it was nice. thoughts just clear up so..
we need more of that. I need more of this -well, being able to hear the humanless outside, while inside. also with no constant noise-machine: I literally did not know until I was maybe 14 years old that the groaning I grew up with was ___ --when I put 2+2 together that the house AND the ship could not have the same starts, groans & creaks throughout all nights of the year whenever I was in either. It was just ___. When I figured that out, It felt like then, as it does to this day, that I lost many years of productive clear thinking +/sleeping due to the horror of snore. it's not just a regular groaning snorting snore of monotony, it's a crying begging whining "everyone come help me I'm dyinggggg, and neeed your attentionnnn!!" snore.