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xx is just a good enough artist that these other womyn may tend to not see him for what he truly is; their judgment might be muddled a bit, thinking he is their path to success, wholeness.. he is not. just like you say with your ___, you are realising that you must yes love yourself more now to be valuable. but don't worry about THAT as a literal 100% thing. human people find self love in others appreciation of their own existence+interactions as well. Yes when we are lost, because someone is unwilling to be what only they are able to be for us, we realise that what was missing was not them but our self. our love for our identity and motivation to excel. but really (a part of) the cure for many of our ailings does come in the form of an other(s). -even if it's cats. you've written a few times about this. this need to love yourself "first". While it is true entirely, we also know an other truth is that what we often crave is to feel the love of another, the appreciation, the watching caring recording reflecting rebounding retouching of another. my motivation doesn't come from within me. I live for me, yes, but my creations I do not create for me nor a mystical entity.. I create usually for a purpose, and if that purpose comes in a certain female form, I'm okay with this. I learned a lot today, and recorded plenty too.. and .. I think I'm laying on a blueberry field, looking up at the stars, all alone right now. or well, you and whomever else might be bounding around the hills, playing with fireflies and the like. all's cool