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you know that overdramatic sad depression that is accessed at many times
lace anger in that and you have me
its a self anger/hatred....i am a fuck up....its over something silly and trivial but it seems important to me right now...i worked 7-3 today...so i had like a day free and stuff to do today...so i was supposed to go hang out with this girl that i really like at a campgrounds....and she said once she got there...she'd call me...well she didn't....i waited..like...+6 hours....finally she called on someone elses phone and said she tried to call me before but she didn't get a hold of me...so....she just stopped trying....that tells ya something....so in turn i waste my whole damn night waiting for a call then i get told about something when its too fucking late and why do i get the urge to just smash my face into the concrete..dramatic...i know..but i have done it before....i just don't know how i survive anymore....i'm a emotional disaster....its either lack of emotion...or raging emotion....i really...don't know what to do anymore....have you ever wanted to kill yourself because you hated yourself so badly?
lace anger in that and you have me
its a self anger/hatred....i am a fuck up....its over something silly and trivial but it seems important to me right now...i worked 7-3 today...so i had like a day free and stuff to do today...so i was supposed to go hang out with this girl that i really like at a campgrounds....and she said once she got there...she'd call me...well she didn't....i waited..like...+6 hours....finally she called on someone elses phone and said she tried to call me before but she didn't get a hold of me...so....she just stopped trying....that tells ya something....so in turn i waste my whole damn night waiting for a call then i get told about something when its too fucking late and why do i get the urge to just smash my face into the concrete..dramatic...i know..but i have done it before....i just don't know how i survive anymore....i'm a emotional disaster....its either lack of emotion...or raging emotion....i really...don't know what to do anymore....have you ever wanted to kill yourself because you hated yourself so badly?