thinking
i have just been....i dunno...supressed
i want to express my absolute and deepest emotions
there is just a dread inside me because i can't get free
writing, drawing, taking pictures...all haven't done it all ...just the tip of the iceberg.
i wonder if....someway..some near death experience...right at that line between the shock of life and death...i wonder if that would be total bliss......just like...a free fall into a certain doom i wonder if that instant before you struck the ground...how engrossed in bliss you would be...how happy you would be...how much you would feel alive and feel just everything...your life flashing within your eyes but so fast that it can't get you depressed....i just wonder how free i would be....i
just don't know....i feel so depressed over being self opressed in this way......i have no idea what i am going to do
also did i mention that its hard to breath right now and my heart is jumping?
i want to express my absolute and deepest emotions
there is just a dread inside me because i can't get free
writing, drawing, taking pictures...all haven't done it all ...just the tip of the iceberg.
i wonder if....someway..some near death experience...right at that line between the shock of life and death...i wonder if that would be total bliss......just like...a free fall into a certain doom i wonder if that instant before you struck the ground...how engrossed in bliss you would be...how happy you would be...how much you would feel alive and feel just everything...your life flashing within your eyes but so fast that it can't get you depressed....i just wonder how free i would be....i
just don't know....i feel so depressed over being self opressed in this way......i have no idea what i am going to do
also did i mention that its hard to breath right now and my heart is jumping?