I grow...concerned with myself.
My Lord could be attempting to contact me, and if he were I would never know, not as this. He could have returned, could require my service, and I am...gone. Yet I find I'm hesitant to ask Eros to return me. I don't want to leave him alone. Not while he remains
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This was supposed to be locked.
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Relatively so.
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If you'd rather I stop changing you, that's fine, love, just tell me. I wont, if it makes you uncomfortable. I would go to the ends of this world and back to make you happy, how many times do I have to tell you this for you to understand?
Mmn. Perhaps we really should spend... less time together. You should be waiting for your Lord, not .... mucking around with me. Consider it, I would... I wouldn't be offended... should you chose to. It would most likely be in your best interest. I'm sorry.
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...I don't trust him.
Easier this way. Easier for you, easier for...for us.
I would...I. Hnh. It is not the time I begrudge, merely that he can't contact me this way. It...concerns me.
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That is no reason for you to restrict yourself to a form you can't stand.
Blackout, listen. Whatever form you're in, works for me. We don't have to have sex to be close, you don't need skin for me to be able to touch you. I... I love you all the same, you know? If this doesn't.. If you can't take this form, then change back, I will sill be here. I will be with you. I wouldn't leave you, Blackout, I wouldn't, not because of whatever shape you take.
You break my heart when you talk like this, say you're upset but it's for me. It doesn't have to be! I... I just... I don't know. It's not your fault, love. You don't have to do this for me. You never did. Just... do what you want to do. Screw what I want, be you if you wish. So long as you are near me, I will be happy.
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Completely legitimate. I don't trust that he won't lash out against you. I will not let him harm you.
...I. I appreciate that, Eros. Doesn't negate the fact that it is more convenient this way, but...the change, perhaps, does not need to be constant.
I said before, Eros, I do not begrudge you the time. I...do want to be in your company. There are times I feel I want nothing more than that. Even were I to resume my proper form, though, I still would be unable to receive communication from my Lord across worlds. The fundamental problem remains.
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Take it from me..love is the greatest strength you can have.
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