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So. Life's been a bit much lately. Thank the gods for a certain someone in my life. The only thing that's keeping me sane.
The end of the school year crept up on me. I had a shitload of projects to do. I stayed up until 2:30am Tuesday night so that I could finish my project. And didn't. And couldn't the next day in 1st period because my teacher was a bitch. So, unsurprisingly, I broke down on Wed. morning and later that night. Of course, in the morning, it was in front of my teacher. I seem to be making a habit of crying in front of my teachers. Did so last year in front of Koyanagi. Anyway, I decided when I got home that I didn't want to deal with it anymore, so I didn't do my French project. And I still got points. I don't understand my teacher sometimes, but I won't complain. Found out today that I stressed out for no reason, since she's accepting it all until Tuesday at 1pm.
Emotional stuff going on, too. Shane isn't taking our break-up well. I don't expect him to, but... I dunno. He expects too much of me. I can't be what he wants me to be. I hate hurting him, but... Well, I'm not going to change for other people. I like how I am, for the most part, so there's no need to change. Especially because there are others who like and accept me for who I am.
Last night sucked ass. My period started, and I got a headache. Cramps and the headache were vying with each other for my attention. The headache left, but I've still got the cramps. Been hating men on and off all day. Fuckin' men have it easy. We have to go through this shit every month until menopause and the pain and inconvenience of pregnancy and child labor...
Despite all of this, I have been giddily happy when I'm not breaking down or crying. Won't go into too much detail here, but... Well. Let's just say I can't wait to get back to the mainland permanently. Next summer is going to rock.
I know there's somethin in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns to dark.
Your arms are my castle
Your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears from my eyes.
The end of the school year crept up on me. I had a shitload of projects to do. I stayed up until 2:30am Tuesday night so that I could finish my project. And didn't. And couldn't the next day in 1st period because my teacher was a bitch. So, unsurprisingly, I broke down on Wed. morning and later that night. Of course, in the morning, it was in front of my teacher. I seem to be making a habit of crying in front of my teachers. Did so last year in front of Koyanagi. Anyway, I decided when I got home that I didn't want to deal with it anymore, so I didn't do my French project. And I still got points. I don't understand my teacher sometimes, but I won't complain. Found out today that I stressed out for no reason, since she's accepting it all until Tuesday at 1pm.
Emotional stuff going on, too. Shane isn't taking our break-up well. I don't expect him to, but... I dunno. He expects too much of me. I can't be what he wants me to be. I hate hurting him, but... Well, I'm not going to change for other people. I like how I am, for the most part, so there's no need to change. Especially because there are others who like and accept me for who I am.
Last night sucked ass. My period started, and I got a headache. Cramps and the headache were vying with each other for my attention. The headache left, but I've still got the cramps. Been hating men on and off all day. Fuckin' men have it easy. We have to go through this shit every month until menopause and the pain and inconvenience of pregnancy and child labor...
Despite all of this, I have been giddily happy when I'm not breaking down or crying. Won't go into too much detail here, but... Well. Let's just say I can't wait to get back to the mainland permanently. Next summer is going to rock.
I know there's somethin in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns to dark.
Your arms are my castle
Your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears from my eyes.