i spent all this morning giving a presentation on horror as a cathartic medium and now all i want to do is watch the texas chainsaw massacre and forget my fears. i get into this weird place right after i've purged myself of a major responsibility, where my eyes water and my back muscles tangle and my brain keeps crawling up the walls of my skull trying just to think of something to do.
Right now I want summer, and voluntary mindlessness. I want a job doing something brainless and easy like rewinding VHS at Hollywood Video or ushering old women to tanning beds. accordingly, i want to be tan. I want to lie in the sun until my bone marrow starts to cook and i evolve away from needing water. or college.
I want to meet new boys girls partners in crime dogs that my mom is picking up this weekend from the rescue shelter a la este:
of course in an hour or so i will see nate or i will see anita or i will see rae who i discovered last is really quite lovely while she was putting another hole through my head, and then i will want to stay. then again, i am driving down to lansing this weekend with my mom and nate to go to my seven year old cousin's roller rink birthday party for the exclusive reason that it is not here. but then again i have taken so many pictures in the last few days of campus that its not humanly funny.
hum dee la i'm worthless