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Dear You,
I can't help but think about a few weeks ago when I last (very briefly) saw you. I wish we'd gotten a chance to talk more but I also know you were busy and in a hurry to get things done and get gone as it was already getting dark. I guess mainly it cracks me up how different your tone was when talking with S vs. how it was talking with me. I know that to the casual observer they'd think you were friendlier to S than to me...but I know what L refers to as the "customer service voice" when I hear it and you were absolutely using a fake friendly tone reserved for those who one has to deal with but really don't want to with S while with me it was just your regular "business mode" voice (as you were in the midst of business stuff). I long for a chance for the two of us to be able to just...talk (okay, maybe do more than talk, but talking is a good starting point!!!)...without worry about being overheard by others...
The cards strongly suggest that you're sorting through a lot of stuff in your mind right now. I definitely know that feeling...and I know that means a waiting game on my end. But so it goes. The cards also strongly suggest you don't want to risk fucking things up--another sentiment I get entirely. This is clearly a marathon, not a race. Hopefully we'll be crossing that finish line at the end of all this together, hand in hand with our respective shitstorms far behind us...but if nothing else hopefully we're both in far happier places than we are now.
Wistfully,
Me
I can't help but think about a few weeks ago when I last (very briefly) saw you. I wish we'd gotten a chance to talk more but I also know you were busy and in a hurry to get things done and get gone as it was already getting dark. I guess mainly it cracks me up how different your tone was when talking with S vs. how it was talking with me. I know that to the casual observer they'd think you were friendlier to S than to me...but I know what L refers to as the "customer service voice" when I hear it and you were absolutely using a fake friendly tone reserved for those who one has to deal with but really don't want to with S while with me it was just your regular "business mode" voice (as you were in the midst of business stuff). I long for a chance for the two of us to be able to just...talk (okay, maybe do more than talk, but talking is a good starting point!!!)...without worry about being overheard by others...
The cards strongly suggest that you're sorting through a lot of stuff in your mind right now. I definitely know that feeling...and I know that means a waiting game on my end. But so it goes. The cards also strongly suggest you don't want to risk fucking things up--another sentiment I get entirely. This is clearly a marathon, not a race. Hopefully we'll be crossing that finish line at the end of all this together, hand in hand with our respective shitstorms far behind us...but if nothing else hopefully we're both in far happier places than we are now.
Wistfully,
Me