Man Those Cords Went Up In Flames Quick
Dear You,
First and foremost I don't blame you for blocking me on everything shortly after you dumped S. You have every right to be angry with me, especially for what you heard me say to S shortly before your trip. I'd had no intention for you to hear that and I know most people would say I should say I didn't mean what I said but I absolutely did mean what I said. I just never meant for you to hear it (and yes I know how fucked up that sounds); that was meant for S and S alone and the fact that she couldn't be arsed to even mute her phone IMO speaks volumes against her claims of "apologizing on my behalf" to you about me reacting the way I did to her blatantly bad behaviors.
I still don't fully understand why you chose to stay with S after that conversation we had in January--although I guess the fact that love can make one both blind and stupid probably accounts for a lot of it. (And yeah, she still flatly denies the worst of what I told you because of course she does.) But seeing as you've rightfully dumped her on her ass, I guess that doesn't really matter. Her actions after you dumped her have only have me further questioning whether things can be saved--nobody likes feeling like the backup option and that's how she's been making me feel. But that's my host of problems to deal with, not yours.
If nothing else, I just want you to know that I was never at any point angry with you. My fury was and still is aimed only at S because she is the one who misled, misbehaved, mishandled, and just flat fucked everything up. I'm not going to pretend I'm completely innocent in all this; I know there's things I could have handled better and I hate that I ended up hurting you too because you never at any point deserved it. I hope things are going well with your new girlfriend and I gotta say...that quip she made at S shortly after you broke up with her? Utter fucking perfection. Serious props to her for that because while it made S both pissed off and extremely upset...that is exactly what she needed to be told because she was acting like a jackass.
--donkere_vlam
First and foremost I don't blame you for blocking me on everything shortly after you dumped S. You have every right to be angry with me, especially for what you heard me say to S shortly before your trip. I'd had no intention for you to hear that and I know most people would say I should say I didn't mean what I said but I absolutely did mean what I said. I just never meant for you to hear it (and yes I know how fucked up that sounds); that was meant for S and S alone and the fact that she couldn't be arsed to even mute her phone IMO speaks volumes against her claims of "apologizing on my behalf" to you about me reacting the way I did to her blatantly bad behaviors.
I still don't fully understand why you chose to stay with S after that conversation we had in January--although I guess the fact that love can make one both blind and stupid probably accounts for a lot of it. (And yeah, she still flatly denies the worst of what I told you because of course she does.) But seeing as you've rightfully dumped her on her ass, I guess that doesn't really matter. Her actions after you dumped her have only have me further questioning whether things can be saved--nobody likes feeling like the backup option and that's how she's been making me feel. But that's my host of problems to deal with, not yours.
If nothing else, I just want you to know that I was never at any point angry with you. My fury was and still is aimed only at S because she is the one who misled, misbehaved, mishandled, and just flat fucked everything up. I'm not going to pretend I'm completely innocent in all this; I know there's things I could have handled better and I hate that I ended up hurting you too because you never at any point deserved it. I hope things are going well with your new girlfriend and I gotta say...that quip she made at S shortly after you broke up with her? Utter fucking perfection. Serious props to her for that because while it made S both pissed off and extremely upset...that is exactly what she needed to be told because she was acting like a jackass.
--donkere_vlam