A long time due post.
So I can't even remember the last time I posted. It's been forever ago, and I don't like it.
I've been without internet since January, but I've been posting short posts at work. Unfortunately with it being the summer, things have gotten busy there and in my own life too. I've been working on art slowly, writing smutty fanfic, writing by hand in my personal journal, and trying to spend time with friends or soul searching as much as possible. I've also been trying hard to not hate people and to enjoy my life as much as possible. I recently have been reading many books including "Women in Pants," "She's Not There," The Sesame Street 40 year anniversary book, and more. My love of Jim Henson Studios has grown, but unfortunately my self confidence has not. Once again I am thinking that I am not good enough for something that I would love to do. I have also started to doubt who I am because I cannot fit myself into a label. However, I am reminded constantly that labels are no where near the truth only because it would take an eternity of label use to describe just one aspect of one person. So I am trying to just be who I am and who I want to be. I am also trying to do that in a location where I do not feel right in. So it's a struggle, but I think happiness is possible anywhere. Hopefully I can make this be true :) Oh well, I'm off to write some more fanfic probably about Ernie and Bert, my favorite couple.
~Peace
Ebony
I've been without internet since January, but I've been posting short posts at work. Unfortunately with it being the summer, things have gotten busy there and in my own life too. I've been working on art slowly, writing smutty fanfic, writing by hand in my personal journal, and trying to spend time with friends or soul searching as much as possible. I've also been trying hard to not hate people and to enjoy my life as much as possible. I recently have been reading many books including "Women in Pants," "She's Not There," The Sesame Street 40 year anniversary book, and more. My love of Jim Henson Studios has grown, but unfortunately my self confidence has not. Once again I am thinking that I am not good enough for something that I would love to do. I have also started to doubt who I am because I cannot fit myself into a label. However, I am reminded constantly that labels are no where near the truth only because it would take an eternity of label use to describe just one aspect of one person. So I am trying to just be who I am and who I want to be. I am also trying to do that in a location where I do not feel right in. So it's a struggle, but I think happiness is possible anywhere. Hopefully I can make this be true :) Oh well, I'm off to write some more fanfic probably about Ernie and Bert, my favorite couple.
~Peace
Ebony