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I feel like never write on this anymore... Not too much time to sit in front of the computer other than at work though. But thankfully I have a peaceful Sunday afternoon, although my body feels like jello from working on building the studio.
Sooo.... the last few weekends and the odd weeknight here and there I have been building a rehearsal studio and it is looking good. I am hoping to have it open for bands in the next week or so. That will all depend on getting some additional manpower to install the ceilings. I think I have soundproofed the walls now... Need to get the ceiling in to find out if I have done a good enough job though. If not, plan b is carpeting the walls, which I don't really want to do because it is so darn heavy. But anyway, I feel a little surprised at the things I have got done over the past few months... Buying a house, building a deck, making a garden bed, filling my dry dead backyard with grass... Stuff like that.
Lots of good things going on... always in a sea of people and busyness... Getting lots accomplished. I am looking forward to some serious relaxation time though.
Slight emo point... Feeling quite alone right now. Note above point "always in a sea of people", but I feel like I can't connect with people very much anymore. Dunno why exactly, but I just feel like I can't. On the odd occasion I feel very alive and feel like I am rocking my "a-game", but the next day I am back to where I was before. In terms of the potential for a relationship - that is so far away from reality at this point. I am not the same person anymore I don't think... I seem to function on a practical and mental level... but emotionally, I don't really feel much these days. I am great at being there for others and helping them out, but aside from the random blog here and there, I rarely know how to share myself... I am pretty closed off. Some people think I am a party scener... quite the contrary. I would give it all up in a heartbeat to be able to connect again... To chill on a porch and just talk till it gets really late and go to bed feeling I learnt about someone and and they learnt about me. Feeling as though I got to know someone's true identity rather than the normal junk most of us talk about. I spoke to my Mum about this the other day and she said that I don't make time to do that and when i do have time i am normally too tired to engage in a decent conversation - maybe that is where the problem lies... Oh well... I just need to free up my time to find out. I kinda wish my life was normal - haha... But again, if it was I would probably just get all busy again! Normality is always short lived for me.
Tonight is washers at 3 Crow with Jeremy and Eric...
Sooo.... the last few weekends and the odd weeknight here and there I have been building a rehearsal studio and it is looking good. I am hoping to have it open for bands in the next week or so. That will all depend on getting some additional manpower to install the ceilings. I think I have soundproofed the walls now... Need to get the ceiling in to find out if I have done a good enough job though. If not, plan b is carpeting the walls, which I don't really want to do because it is so darn heavy. But anyway, I feel a little surprised at the things I have got done over the past few months... Buying a house, building a deck, making a garden bed, filling my dry dead backyard with grass... Stuff like that.
Lots of good things going on... always in a sea of people and busyness... Getting lots accomplished. I am looking forward to some serious relaxation time though.
Slight emo point... Feeling quite alone right now. Note above point "always in a sea of people", but I feel like I can't connect with people very much anymore. Dunno why exactly, but I just feel like I can't. On the odd occasion I feel very alive and feel like I am rocking my "a-game", but the next day I am back to where I was before. In terms of the potential for a relationship - that is so far away from reality at this point. I am not the same person anymore I don't think... I seem to function on a practical and mental level... but emotionally, I don't really feel much these days. I am great at being there for others and helping them out, but aside from the random blog here and there, I rarely know how to share myself... I am pretty closed off. Some people think I am a party scener... quite the contrary. I would give it all up in a heartbeat to be able to connect again... To chill on a porch and just talk till it gets really late and go to bed feeling I learnt about someone and and they learnt about me. Feeling as though I got to know someone's true identity rather than the normal junk most of us talk about. I spoke to my Mum about this the other day and she said that I don't make time to do that and when i do have time i am normally too tired to engage in a decent conversation - maybe that is where the problem lies... Oh well... I just need to free up my time to find out. I kinda wish my life was normal - haha... But again, if it was I would probably just get all busy again! Normality is always short lived for me.
Tonight is washers at 3 Crow with Jeremy and Eric...