Forbidden Love Chapter 14
Title: Forbidden Love
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Takaki didn’t say anything along the meeting. He just kept silent and didn’t even look at the others all the time. He was also the first person who walked out of the room. There’s no good bye. He just walked out. He took a little glance to Yamada when he passed him but that’s all. He didn’t even say anything.
Yabu sighed heavily and shook his head.
You should’ve talk to me so you don’t have to carry it alone. I don’t mind you being a gay. I really don’t mind it at all.
“You’ve been looking at him like you want to eat him alive.”
Yabu turned to see Hikaru was staring at him intently. He sighed again and looked back to Takaki.
“I can’t take this anymore.”
With that, Yabu suddenly walked fast and reached for Takaki’s arm. Almost pulled him, Yabu dragged Takaki to the stairs and cornered him to the wall.
“When I said you can tell me everything, I really meant you can tell me everything. When I said everything, it means every little thing you need to tell me.”
Takaki gulped but stayed silent. He gritted his teeth very hard.
“Takaki, please. Can’t you trust me?”
Takaki averted his eyes from Yabu. He couldn’t hold his heart seeing Yabu’s expression at the time.
“For your information, I saw you with Shinkawa many days ago.”
Takaki stoned. His eyes almost bulged, but he said nothing.
“I can see love in her eyes when she looked at you. She loves you.”
Once again Takaki gulped hard.
“But your eyes darted somewhere else.”
Takaki froze. Slowly he turned to Yabu and gulped hard when he saw Yabu was staring intently at him.
“And I know where do your eyes darted.”
Takaki could feel the world around him fell so sudden. He could hear the sound of its collapse. He suddenly felt boneless. His body slumped until he sat on the floor. He facepalmed himself and gritted his teeth very hard.
I knew that they will find it. I’m too bold. I can’t handle my feeling when Ryosuke’s around. I can’t averted my eyes from him when he’s around. I knew somebody will recognize it. I knew sooner or later we will be busted. What should I do? What should I say?
“Takaki, please. Don’t make me conclude anything by myself. Tell me. You can tell me everything. I really mean it.”
“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. I’m sorry.”
Yabu reached Takaki’s arm and pulled him. “Come on, get up. I can’t hear you clearly when you say anything while ducking your head.”
Takaki gulped and didn’t dare to look at Yabu.
“I’m sorry. I ruined everything.”
“Ruined what? You didn’t do anything. You didn’t ruin anything, why say sorry?”
Takaki shook his head. “No. I did ruin everything. If I stay here more than this, JUMP will be suffered. It will be our doomsday. I have to go away from here.”
“No! I won’t let you go anywhere.” Yabu reached for Takaki’s shoulder and forced him to sit straight. “You don’t ruin anything. I’m fine for everything you’ve chosen. I know how it feels when you have to hide your feeling tightly while you want to shout out loudly. I do really know how hurt it is. So please, don’t run away. You won’t solve anything with run away. You will just make Ryosuke more sad than this. He loves you too. I can see so much love in his eyes every time he looks at you. Too much until he can’t handle it when he saw you with that girl.”
Once again Takaki froze. He looked at Yabu who stared at him apologetically.
Yabu slumped and sighed. “Maybe he saw you with the girl. Perhaps. I don’t know. Ryosuke shut himself from everything last days. That’s why he didn’t go anywhere. That’s the reason why he was absent last days.”
Once again Takaki felt boneless.
I hurt him. I hurt him that much.
“No. You didn’t do anything. I know you don’t love her. I know you only love Ryosuke, and there’s no more room for someone else. You don’t hurt him. It’s just ..., Ryosuke saw you in the wrong time.”
Takaki felt his tears forced to fall but he gritted his teeth hard to prevent them. He stood up, wobbled at the process, made Yabu caught him quickly before he fell.
“Am I this bad? Falling with someone I shouldn’t even to, then hurt him.”
“You’re not hurting him. At all. He concluded everything by himself. He didn’t ask you, did he? He didn’t confirm it to you, right?”
Takaki gulped, and the tears fell. “Still, he’s hurt.” Takaki gripped his head. “Oh, my God. I shouldn’t even see him. I shouldn’t even fall for him.”
“You can’t predict what your heart is feeling. You can’t even predict where it goes.”
Takaki knelt and gripped his hands until his knuckles turned white. “We shouldn’t meet from the very beginning. I knew I was in the wrong place since the very beginning but they told me that I wasn’t. Now I know that I shouldn’t be here since the start.”
Yabu grabbed him and forced Takaki to face him.
“No, you’re wrong. Your place is here. You should be here from the very beginning. You’re definitely not in the wrong place from the very start.”
“We crossed the line, Yabu. The society will hate us when they found about us. We will drag you to a doom if we keep this going.”
“There’s nothing will happen because love always wins.”
Takaki closed his eyes.
“It is very easy to talk, isn’t it? We shouldn’t fall in love. We should get married one day, with a girl. That’s the norm.”
“But even you yourself can’t force your feeling to a certain person. You love Yamada, and that’s final. Fight for it. I’m right behind you. We’re right behind you.”
Takaki kept silent for a while before chuckled lightly.
“You talk like it’s something very common.”
Yabu nodded firmly. “It is. Loving somebody then fighting for it is a very normal thing you should do.” Yabu smiled. “I’m happy to see you happy. It is so rare to see you expressing your feeling boldly. You always kept it. You always hid your feeling tightly, even when you got mad at one of us.”
“But society won’t accept us.”
Once again Yabu slumped. He sighed heavily and looked away. “Don’t mind them. They’re always like that. Judging people on how they see, and not thinking about the true intention. They will always be like that. As long as you have your love inside you, you win over everything.” Yabu smiled again and turned to Takaki. “You should fight for it. I’m right behind you.”
Takaki almost melted in his place. Yabu’s words sounded very convincing. He could see a little light far away to guide him walked out of the darkness that surrounded him last days. He could see a little hope. A hope that he could win his love over reality.
Reality.
Takaki smiled and shook his head.
Reality will still against us if we force ourselves to continue this. We will definitely be doomed if they found out about me and Ryosuke. Ryosuke is the apple of everybody’s eyes. They will surely left him when they found out that he’s not straight.
Oh my God.
I drove him to his doom.
We should end this.
We should live normally like others, falling in love and getting married with a girl. We shouldn’t cross the line.
No.
They won’t leave Ryosuke
If I let him go.
Takaki straightened his body and gritted his teeth tightly.
He will be just fine if I let him go. They won’t do any harm to him. They will wellcome him like there’s nothing happened.
Takaki closed his eyes again.
They won’t know anything if I don’t say anything. No one will know if I don’t leak anything. Everything will stay as a secret if no one say anything.
“Takaki ... “
I wish I could turn back the time, so I can revise all of this stupid thing. I wish I can go back to the past and prevent myself of joining Johnny’s, so I won’t meet Ryosuke. I wish I ...
“Takaki!”
Takaki snapped and looked at Yabu. He blinked many times but stayed silent.
“Don’t scare me with your thought. Please, there’s nothing to be worried. Everything will be just fine.”
Takaki gulped. Words are beautiful, aren’t they?
“Say something, please. Don’t stay silent all the time.”
Takaki walked away.
“Takaki ... “
You can say such thing because you don’t know how it feels when all of the people go against you. Will you still stay beside me when that happen? Will you still stay when all the people in the world found out about us?
“Takaki!”
Yabu reached Takaki’s arm and forced Takaki to face him.
“Don’t ever think that you are alone. I’m here. We’re here. You’re not alone. We won’t go away even the world go against you. We will stay here with you. So please, say something.”
Takaki chuckled lightly and walked away, but still didn’t say anything.
“We can’t leave him alone.”
Yabu turned to see Inoo. dan Hikaru were standing side by side while staring intently to the place where Takaki disappeared.
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Takaki didn’t say anything along the meeting. He just kept silent and didn’t even look at the others all the time. He was also the first person who walked out of the room. There’s no good bye. He just walked out. He took a little glance to Yamada when he passed him but that’s all. He didn’t even say anything.
Yabu sighed heavily and shook his head.
You should’ve talk to me so you don’t have to carry it alone. I don’t mind you being a gay. I really don’t mind it at all.
“You’ve been looking at him like you want to eat him alive.”
Yabu turned to see Hikaru was staring at him intently. He sighed again and looked back to Takaki.
“I can’t take this anymore.”
With that, Yabu suddenly walked fast and reached for Takaki’s arm. Almost pulled him, Yabu dragged Takaki to the stairs and cornered him to the wall.
“When I said you can tell me everything, I really meant you can tell me everything. When I said everything, it means every little thing you need to tell me.”
Takaki gulped but stayed silent. He gritted his teeth very hard.
“Takaki, please. Can’t you trust me?”
Takaki averted his eyes from Yabu. He couldn’t hold his heart seeing Yabu’s expression at the time.
“For your information, I saw you with Shinkawa many days ago.”
Takaki stoned. His eyes almost bulged, but he said nothing.
“I can see love in her eyes when she looked at you. She loves you.”
Once again Takaki gulped hard.
“But your eyes darted somewhere else.”
Takaki froze. Slowly he turned to Yabu and gulped hard when he saw Yabu was staring intently at him.
“And I know where do your eyes darted.”
Takaki could feel the world around him fell so sudden. He could hear the sound of its collapse. He suddenly felt boneless. His body slumped until he sat on the floor. He facepalmed himself and gritted his teeth very hard.
I knew that they will find it. I’m too bold. I can’t handle my feeling when Ryosuke’s around. I can’t averted my eyes from him when he’s around. I knew somebody will recognize it. I knew sooner or later we will be busted. What should I do? What should I say?
“Takaki, please. Don’t make me conclude anything by myself. Tell me. You can tell me everything. I really mean it.”
“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. I’m sorry.”
Yabu reached Takaki’s arm and pulled him. “Come on, get up. I can’t hear you clearly when you say anything while ducking your head.”
Takaki gulped and didn’t dare to look at Yabu.
“I’m sorry. I ruined everything.”
“Ruined what? You didn’t do anything. You didn’t ruin anything, why say sorry?”
Takaki shook his head. “No. I did ruin everything. If I stay here more than this, JUMP will be suffered. It will be our doomsday. I have to go away from here.”
“No! I won’t let you go anywhere.” Yabu reached for Takaki’s shoulder and forced him to sit straight. “You don’t ruin anything. I’m fine for everything you’ve chosen. I know how it feels when you have to hide your feeling tightly while you want to shout out loudly. I do really know how hurt it is. So please, don’t run away. You won’t solve anything with run away. You will just make Ryosuke more sad than this. He loves you too. I can see so much love in his eyes every time he looks at you. Too much until he can’t handle it when he saw you with that girl.”
Once again Takaki froze. He looked at Yabu who stared at him apologetically.
Yabu slumped and sighed. “Maybe he saw you with the girl. Perhaps. I don’t know. Ryosuke shut himself from everything last days. That’s why he didn’t go anywhere. That’s the reason why he was absent last days.”
Once again Takaki felt boneless.
I hurt him. I hurt him that much.
“No. You didn’t do anything. I know you don’t love her. I know you only love Ryosuke, and there’s no more room for someone else. You don’t hurt him. It’s just ..., Ryosuke saw you in the wrong time.”
Takaki felt his tears forced to fall but he gritted his teeth hard to prevent them. He stood up, wobbled at the process, made Yabu caught him quickly before he fell.
“Am I this bad? Falling with someone I shouldn’t even to, then hurt him.”
“You’re not hurting him. At all. He concluded everything by himself. He didn’t ask you, did he? He didn’t confirm it to you, right?”
Takaki gulped, and the tears fell. “Still, he’s hurt.” Takaki gripped his head. “Oh, my God. I shouldn’t even see him. I shouldn’t even fall for him.”
“You can’t predict what your heart is feeling. You can’t even predict where it goes.”
Takaki knelt and gripped his hands until his knuckles turned white. “We shouldn’t meet from the very beginning. I knew I was in the wrong place since the very beginning but they told me that I wasn’t. Now I know that I shouldn’t be here since the start.”
Yabu grabbed him and forced Takaki to face him.
“No, you’re wrong. Your place is here. You should be here from the very beginning. You’re definitely not in the wrong place from the very start.”
“We crossed the line, Yabu. The society will hate us when they found about us. We will drag you to a doom if we keep this going.”
“There’s nothing will happen because love always wins.”
Takaki closed his eyes.
“It is very easy to talk, isn’t it? We shouldn’t fall in love. We should get married one day, with a girl. That’s the norm.”
“But even you yourself can’t force your feeling to a certain person. You love Yamada, and that’s final. Fight for it. I’m right behind you. We’re right behind you.”
Takaki kept silent for a while before chuckled lightly.
“You talk like it’s something very common.”
Yabu nodded firmly. “It is. Loving somebody then fighting for it is a very normal thing you should do.” Yabu smiled. “I’m happy to see you happy. It is so rare to see you expressing your feeling boldly. You always kept it. You always hid your feeling tightly, even when you got mad at one of us.”
“But society won’t accept us.”
Once again Yabu slumped. He sighed heavily and looked away. “Don’t mind them. They’re always like that. Judging people on how they see, and not thinking about the true intention. They will always be like that. As long as you have your love inside you, you win over everything.” Yabu smiled again and turned to Takaki. “You should fight for it. I’m right behind you.”
Takaki almost melted in his place. Yabu’s words sounded very convincing. He could see a little light far away to guide him walked out of the darkness that surrounded him last days. He could see a little hope. A hope that he could win his love over reality.
Reality.
Takaki smiled and shook his head.
Reality will still against us if we force ourselves to continue this. We will definitely be doomed if they found out about me and Ryosuke. Ryosuke is the apple of everybody’s eyes. They will surely left him when they found out that he’s not straight.
Oh my God.
I drove him to his doom.
We should end this.
We should live normally like others, falling in love and getting married with a girl. We shouldn’t cross the line.
No.
They won’t leave Ryosuke
If I let him go.
Takaki straightened his body and gritted his teeth tightly.
He will be just fine if I let him go. They won’t do any harm to him. They will wellcome him like there’s nothing happened.
Takaki closed his eyes again.
They won’t know anything if I don’t say anything. No one will know if I don’t leak anything. Everything will stay as a secret if no one say anything.
“Takaki ... “
I wish I could turn back the time, so I can revise all of this stupid thing. I wish I can go back to the past and prevent myself of joining Johnny’s, so I won’t meet Ryosuke. I wish I ...
“Takaki!”
Takaki snapped and looked at Yabu. He blinked many times but stayed silent.
“Don’t scare me with your thought. Please, there’s nothing to be worried. Everything will be just fine.”
Takaki gulped. Words are beautiful, aren’t they?
“Say something, please. Don’t stay silent all the time.”
Takaki walked away.
“Takaki ... “
You can say such thing because you don’t know how it feels when all of the people go against you. Will you still stay beside me when that happen? Will you still stay when all the people in the world found out about us?
“Takaki!”
Yabu reached Takaki’s arm and forced Takaki to face him.
“Don’t ever think that you are alone. I’m here. We’re here. You’re not alone. We won’t go away even the world go against you. We will stay here with you. So please, say something.”
Takaki chuckled lightly and walked away, but still didn’t say anything.
“We can’t leave him alone.”
Yabu turned to see Inoo. dan Hikaru were standing side by side while staring intently to the place where Takaki disappeared.