I don't know if this is going to help... but in my mind, love is not *necessarily* equaled with exclusiveness. When I go around and meet other uh... guys, it's not love, it's just sex, taking what I need and disappearing again. Some are friends, but when I'm with you, the emotions are that make things different.
That night, when I made love to you. It was special. Hell, every moment with you is special and I don't feel that way for anyone else and I'm trying to show you that, to give you all I can give. To trust you and wanting to be there for you when you need me. And in my mind, *that's* the difference between loving someone and just fucking around. That, and the fact that if you asked me to, I would become exclusive with you without even thinking about it. I know I would.
I don't know whether or not what I give to you is enough for you. I can only hope, and whatever it is you think is lacking... hey, I won't bit you for asking for it, right? *grins*
Lighten up a bit, love. *snuggles* Look at the bright side of things, at the things you *have* accomplished, you *have* gained. Life can be fucking brilliant if you do that. *smiles and pokes a little*
I know I come from different experiences, and you can't change the way you feel and all (and I wouldn't even *want* to) - I wasn't trying to lecture you or anyhting, just offering my point of view. And don't worry, Dean, I didn't think you were trying to "belittle" what we have or something. I guess I'm just my usual talkative self today and got off on a tangent. I could just have summed it all up in "I love you, no matter what."
God, I know, Dean, I know. Don't you think I wouldn't have noticed? *hugs tight* Don't hate yourself for saying it.
If there's anything I can do to help you solve any of the problems, you *know* you can at least ask, if only for advices. If not, I'll just listen without judging, okay?
*kisses* Just... try to concentrate a bit on what you have and less on what you need. It worked for me and it can't hurt trying. Won't stop the need, that's true, but... might help a little, teeny bit.
God, and there I go all talkative again. *laughs* Sorry. I'll try to do better. *winks*
Let's make a deal. I will stop apologoising if you will stop apologising for your feelings, okay? *smiles*
I know how that feels, Dean. I've gone through that again and again myself. I wish I could do anything, and if there is anything - ask. Talk to me. I know it's hard.
*strokes a cheek* I will help you get through this as good as I can.
I hope you'll be, I hate to see you hurting. *holds him for a little while, then lets go again, afraid to put him under too much 'pressure', just the faintest touches on his arms to offer reassurance*
That night, when I made love to you. It was special. Hell, every moment with you is special and I don't feel that way for anyone else and I'm trying to show you that, to give you all I can give. To trust you and wanting to be there for you when you need me. And in my mind, *that's* the difference between loving someone and just fucking around. That, and the fact that if you asked me to, I would become exclusive with you without even thinking about it. I know I would.
I don't know whether or not what I give to you is enough for you. I can only hope, and whatever it is you think is lacking... hey, I won't bit you for asking for it, right? *grins*
Lighten up a bit, love. *snuggles* Look at the bright side of things, at the things you *have* accomplished, you *have* gained. Life can be fucking brilliant if you do that. *smiles and pokes a little*
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You come from different experiences. All experiences that I yet have to make. Maybe.
I'm downright confused today. I didn't mean to ..belittle what we have, in any way.
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I know I come from different experiences, and you can't change the way you feel and all (and I wouldn't even *want* to) - I wasn't trying to lecture you or anyhting, just offering my point of view. And don't worry, Dean, I didn't think you were trying to "belittle" what we have or something. I guess I'm just my usual talkative self today and got off on a tangent. I could just have summed it all up in "I love you, no matter what."
*grins* And I do.
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And now I do hate myself for saying this to you.
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If there's anything I can do to help you solve any of the problems, you *know* you can at least ask, if only for advices. If not, I'll just listen without judging, okay?
*kisses* Just... try to concentrate a bit on what you have and less on what you need. It worked for me and it can't hurt trying. Won't stop the need, that's true, but... might help a little, teeny bit.
God, and there I go all talkative again. *laughs* Sorry. I'll try to do better. *winks*
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But some day, what I have is not enough. Any of it. As cruel as that seems. Not because I want better, mind you. It's just...not enough.
I'm so sorry.
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I know how that feels, Dean. I've gone through that again and again myself. I wish I could do anything, and if there is anything - ask. Talk to me. I know it's hard.
*strokes a cheek* I will help you get through this as good as I can.
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I just don't think that you can get me through this. Or anyone else, for that matter.
I'll be better tomorrow.
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Take care and stay safe.
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I'll be better tomorrow, I promise.
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Jason frowned angry at himself for being vulnerable enough to be hurt by this statement.
"We should try talking. I can fucking connect if y'give me the bloody chance."
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Dean groans and hides his face in his hands.
"Can I come talk to you? Let me explain?"
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For Dean and Jason's chat.
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