Another sad day...
These just keep coming. I'll bitch about the bad days here, get it done and over with, because honestly I don't let this shit wrap on me to badly.
Let's see, even though my rent will be late and I'll be able to get another weak paycheck in the bank towards it, I won't have enough to cover it. How sad. Oh well, hell starts next week, so I'll be able to catch up, I just hope the landlord will be kind...the cheap, penny pinching, pole smoking, fashion victim of a Greek hobo he is. Money sucks, but no sense in worrying about it if you can't do anything about it. I have the odd feeling that were I to be faced with a death sentence, I would be calm and collected because there would be nothing I could do about it. Sitting in the electric chair moments before the switch is thrown would be my most deep moment of peace ever. Yea. Anyway.
Actually, my main reason for posting today is to air out something that has been bugging me. I think I've really lost a friend this time. I mean, I feel uncomfortable thinking about her, talking to her, asking about things...I feel that if I am in trouble, there are 50 people in front of her I would ask for help before even thinking about her. Some of those people are people I have met on LJ recently too, which is sad. In fact, a recent friend who has come out of the past and really opened up to me after years of absence, ranks higher than this age old beauty. Kinda sucks. I was gonna remove her from my friends list because I realize there are some things I would want to say here that I would no longer feel comfortable talking to her about. That is not really a bridge I want to burn, and I want to leave the door open because honestly the issues that have become apparent are not mine. So instead I figured out the LJ friends groups, and just left her and a few others out. Kinda sad. No sense in tears over it though, since this is just another thing beyond my control. I'm sure she knows who it is by simply reading this, and as for the rest of my LJ friends, even the ones I don't talk to terribly often, I'm sure you'll all know your still kept close. Thanks all!
Ciao.
~Frost
Let's see, even though my rent will be late and I'll be able to get another weak paycheck in the bank towards it, I won't have enough to cover it. How sad. Oh well, hell starts next week, so I'll be able to catch up, I just hope the landlord will be kind...the cheap, penny pinching, pole smoking, fashion victim of a Greek hobo he is. Money sucks, but no sense in worrying about it if you can't do anything about it. I have the odd feeling that were I to be faced with a death sentence, I would be calm and collected because there would be nothing I could do about it. Sitting in the electric chair moments before the switch is thrown would be my most deep moment of peace ever. Yea. Anyway.
Actually, my main reason for posting today is to air out something that has been bugging me. I think I've really lost a friend this time. I mean, I feel uncomfortable thinking about her, talking to her, asking about things...I feel that if I am in trouble, there are 50 people in front of her I would ask for help before even thinking about her. Some of those people are people I have met on LJ recently too, which is sad. In fact, a recent friend who has come out of the past and really opened up to me after years of absence, ranks higher than this age old beauty. Kinda sucks. I was gonna remove her from my friends list because I realize there are some things I would want to say here that I would no longer feel comfortable talking to her about. That is not really a bridge I want to burn, and I want to leave the door open because honestly the issues that have become apparent are not mine. So instead I figured out the LJ friends groups, and just left her and a few others out. Kinda sad. No sense in tears over it though, since this is just another thing beyond my control. I'm sure she knows who it is by simply reading this, and as for the rest of my LJ friends, even the ones I don't talk to terribly often, I'm sure you'll all know your still kept close. Thanks all!
Ciao.
~Frost