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so. wanna hear about my stressful day. i know you do.
actually, only the first part was stressful. spending the day with jason and his mom in new york was quite fun. i cant begin to explain it. but trust me when i say i laughed all day.
sooooo as previously noted, i talked to sandie before i went to jason's this morning. and i told her....."back in march you said if rachel was leaving that you'd train me to be head cashier. and i know luigi is being trained now. so i wanted to know if it was the cigarrette thing or if i did something else wrong that made you decide not to train me". now. i really do have to give her mad props off on her answer. because it was so VAGUE and ROUNDABOUT, that i couldnt actually dispute what she said, because i didnt understand what she said. so this was her answer:
something about...."its not that i dont want to train you.....we're stretched thin right now, and your my cashier trainer, even tho i cant use you as my cashier trainer, and it does depend some on availability, and ive noticed that younger employees arent really listening to younger supervisors, so i have to address that, so just be patient, because we're 'reorganizing'". there were a few other sentences in there that served to confuse me more, but that was the gist of the excuse.
RIGHT. now let me dispute that entire excuse now that i've had all day to analyze it. first off, if we're stretched too thin, then obviously training someone else to take on some of the load would be beneficial to all. and if im the cashier trainer that cant be used as a cashier trainer, then OBVIOUSLY im not really a cashier trainer--the hub does that. availaiblity, ok fine. i know luigi takes night classes and he can work mornings, so he does have that up on me. but please. chris isnt really gunna be closing anymore, and im almost positive come september, janet's not gunna wanna close 6 nights a week and have to get up at the crack of dawn to get her kids to school. and if the kids arent listening to younger supervisors, then HOW is training luigi gunna solve that, when hes even younger than i am, even if it is only by a few months. that makes NO sense. and i've been patient for 6 FRIGGIN MONTHS! how much longer do i have to be patient?!? and what the hell is reorganizing????
so all i got out of today was......we're not training you to be a head cashier, but we cant think of a decent excuse except we just dont like you, but we wont give you the dignity of telling you that to your face, so we're making up stupid excuses that make no sense, but we cant afford to actually lose you, not because we think your a good booth clerk, but because your one of the better competent cashiers, so we're going to train someone younger than you with a year's less experience and make him your boss so when we put you on the registers for weeks on end we can really stick it to you.......but dont quit, be patient.
screw you big y. ive had it. i have no reason to stick around there. not one. so im attempting to write up my resume. and i think im gunna talk to leslie to see if any of the other big y's are looking for booth clerks or head cashiers. ive put so much into this big y and this career, that it makes me nauseous just thinking about having to start over. so as much as i'd like to stick it to the whole corporation, i dont think im quitting big y all together. but transferring? well that just became a phenomenal idea.
so. thats what im working on now. but i mean, if you guys know of any job openings around where your working, well then post them up, cuz i'll look into them now. i know my heart will always be in customer service, so that'd be awesome if anyone knows of a job like that. but. im really just tired now.
all in all, i really dont know what to do. im just so sick of being taken advantage of.