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There's this ag/stud that sells mixtapes outside of Xavier Complex where we have our business classes. She reminds me a lot of Michelle in that they are both black and have cornrows and dress in that ghetto thug way. The only difference that I can tell so far is that the mixtape chick is a lot more open and outgoing then Michelle. Michelle is very private and closed-up. Extremely shy.
So anyways, this mixtape chick asked me to stand in her spot so she could back up and I did and she thanked me with a free cd. And then she gave me a second free cd 'cause she said I was pretty. I got a third cd as well "just because."
I wonder if she is seeing anyone.....hmmm.....
It's been a pretty good week for me....i'm rounding up a pretty nice bunch of options....lots of variety too.
Ooh, and Michelle is going to see me sometime this weekend. It's about time. Just thinking about it, my heart is unraveling. She's doing so well on her softball team, they won their first three games. It's good that all the time she spends away from me is not in vain. Because she's happy, athletics are her passion. They've been around way longer than I have. I figure I can reconcile my feelings because thats exactly what she did with my being 4 hrs away. 'Cause like I told her when I first met her, my education has been around way longer than her. And we both know that at the end of the day, our feelings are for each other and that's who we come back to when we can. I just worry about us drifting apart in the interim but i've come up with a few ideas on how to monitor and prevent that. For example, we started an email log for the days we don't get to talk to each other. It's just a little summary on our day and anything else we would have told each other. This way we stay up-to-date, connected and know what is going on in each other's lives.
I'm putting a lot more work and effort into this fake relationship than I ever intended to or thought I would. Then again I never expected to fall for the girl and think so highly of her as I do. I don't just mean that in regards to romantic affection but as to who she is as a person. It's going on 8 months.
All these others girls that I'm meeting and talkin' to are around to serve other purposes. I may just come to like one or two or all of them but they could never illicit from me the feelings and actions Michelle illicits from me. And in the end, they don't even exist in comparison to her. Like I've always stated, my intentions are stated from the beginning with these girls and so I do not feel as if I'm doing anything wrong.
It seems in my journal entries I'm constantly making references to what is wrong or right and trying to justify my actions. I'm not sure if that's because I really don't believe in their justifications. Either way its not going to stop me. Like Taina said, we are both very indulgent people. It's a very good thing I never met Eve....I would have eaten her applesauce, apple pie, and drank her apple juice.
Well, i'm off to my last class. Tata.
So anyways, this mixtape chick asked me to stand in her spot so she could back up and I did and she thanked me with a free cd. And then she gave me a second free cd 'cause she said I was pretty. I got a third cd as well "just because."
I wonder if she is seeing anyone.....hmmm.....
It's been a pretty good week for me....i'm rounding up a pretty nice bunch of options....lots of variety too.
Ooh, and Michelle is going to see me sometime this weekend. It's about time. Just thinking about it, my heart is unraveling. She's doing so well on her softball team, they won their first three games. It's good that all the time she spends away from me is not in vain. Because she's happy, athletics are her passion. They've been around way longer than I have. I figure I can reconcile my feelings because thats exactly what she did with my being 4 hrs away. 'Cause like I told her when I first met her, my education has been around way longer than her. And we both know that at the end of the day, our feelings are for each other and that's who we come back to when we can. I just worry about us drifting apart in the interim but i've come up with a few ideas on how to monitor and prevent that. For example, we started an email log for the days we don't get to talk to each other. It's just a little summary on our day and anything else we would have told each other. This way we stay up-to-date, connected and know what is going on in each other's lives.
I'm putting a lot more work and effort into this fake relationship than I ever intended to or thought I would. Then again I never expected to fall for the girl and think so highly of her as I do. I don't just mean that in regards to romantic affection but as to who she is as a person. It's going on 8 months.
All these others girls that I'm meeting and talkin' to are around to serve other purposes. I may just come to like one or two or all of them but they could never illicit from me the feelings and actions Michelle illicits from me. And in the end, they don't even exist in comparison to her. Like I've always stated, my intentions are stated from the beginning with these girls and so I do not feel as if I'm doing anything wrong.
It seems in my journal entries I'm constantly making references to what is wrong or right and trying to justify my actions. I'm not sure if that's because I really don't believe in their justifications. Either way its not going to stop me. Like Taina said, we are both very indulgent people. It's a very good thing I never met Eve....I would have eaten her applesauce, apple pie, and drank her apple juice.
Well, i'm off to my last class. Tata.