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While Taina was on spring break, she bumped into Yoleidi at the movies. Yoleidi asked how I was doing and Taina told her she should give me a call and ask me herself. Good thinking Taina and good job too because she did. Pretty good timing if you ask me.
I'm absolutely horrible though. I have a new "project" and it's name is Angelina. See, I made friends with this boy named Carlos. A down ass kid who I had mad fun with but who didn't seem to grasp my sexuality. He really insisted on being with me and it became a problem and ultimately I had to let him go. It was sad but necessary. Now prior to this I had met a girl named Angelina who had intentions of hooking up with me. We only talked once and nothing ever happened. The ball was basically in my court and I decided against it. Now it so turns out that Angelina is Carlos' recent ex and I found this out tonight because he immed me from her sn. It is indeed a small world we live in.
After he went home, Angelina and I continued our conversation in which much was discussed. Apparently, she is a virgin to both guys and girls. In fact, when it comes to girls, she has zero experience. Bisexuality is a concept that is both new and exciting to her and she is eager to experience it.
When it comes to relationships, I've learned not to fuck with bi-curious and bisexual girls. It can be the quickest road to heartbreak. However, as someone who is looking for something casual, this is almost like music to my ears. Now this is where the horrible part comes in. I want to turn this chick out, I want to be life-changing. I want to be her first, be the unforgettable. I've done it before and it's a fun challenge that I have perfected. I thought I grew up from this kinda bullshit but apparently, I have not. Plus, this chick's measurements are 34-27-43. Do you know what that means? Dis chick is thick as shyt. She has some killer hips and a huge ass with that little waist. This is one of those opportunities you don't let pass you by. Besides I already got the digits and Carlos' ok, what else is really stopping me? Not my conscious, it's just as evil.
It seems my summer hijinks have started early and I welcome this change in my current routine. I need something in which to focus on and to entertain myself with. And don't give me this bullshit about true colors and morals and values. I can't say this is different or it doesn't apply and I can't justify it, but I believe it's understandable at the very least.
The people who I care about get the very best of me. I can be extremely loving. It is within me to be faithful and true. However, there is a part of me that loves to play the game. Loves to use and abuse, fine-tuning my "mack skills" along the way. Purposely tripping up in the game just to see how easily I can get back on track. The people who I mentioned above never see this side of me and they never will. Nor will the girls who I have real feelings for and want to have something real with. Like Michelle. But girls like Angelina and perhaps even Yoleidi, serve a different purpose. My ego is hungry and must be fed. I'm one cocky hija de la gran puta but just as everything is balanced in life, there is enough good in me to be redempted.
Perhaps this entry is me battling with my intentions as I know they are not right but I state them to make myself aware that they exist and show myself what kind of person I am allowing myself to be at this moment.
In a fairytale, I might just come to know Angelina and start to really like her. In a fairytale, I may not just be a new experience to her but something she could really consider in her life. I feel as if we are equal in the motivation we have for the roles we are deciding to play. We both see something we can gain from the other person, benefit from. She is no longer the unsuspecting prey and I the wiser predator. It is a business deal really. A venture for me and an adventure for her.
Updates on this "project" to follow...
I'm absolutely horrible though. I have a new "project" and it's name is Angelina. See, I made friends with this boy named Carlos. A down ass kid who I had mad fun with but who didn't seem to grasp my sexuality. He really insisted on being with me and it became a problem and ultimately I had to let him go. It was sad but necessary. Now prior to this I had met a girl named Angelina who had intentions of hooking up with me. We only talked once and nothing ever happened. The ball was basically in my court and I decided against it. Now it so turns out that Angelina is Carlos' recent ex and I found this out tonight because he immed me from her sn. It is indeed a small world we live in.
After he went home, Angelina and I continued our conversation in which much was discussed. Apparently, she is a virgin to both guys and girls. In fact, when it comes to girls, she has zero experience. Bisexuality is a concept that is both new and exciting to her and she is eager to experience it.
When it comes to relationships, I've learned not to fuck with bi-curious and bisexual girls. It can be the quickest road to heartbreak. However, as someone who is looking for something casual, this is almost like music to my ears. Now this is where the horrible part comes in. I want to turn this chick out, I want to be life-changing. I want to be her first, be the unforgettable. I've done it before and it's a fun challenge that I have perfected. I thought I grew up from this kinda bullshit but apparently, I have not. Plus, this chick's measurements are 34-27-43. Do you know what that means? Dis chick is thick as shyt. She has some killer hips and a huge ass with that little waist. This is one of those opportunities you don't let pass you by. Besides I already got the digits and Carlos' ok, what else is really stopping me? Not my conscious, it's just as evil.
It seems my summer hijinks have started early and I welcome this change in my current routine. I need something in which to focus on and to entertain myself with. And don't give me this bullshit about true colors and morals and values. I can't say this is different or it doesn't apply and I can't justify it, but I believe it's understandable at the very least.
The people who I care about get the very best of me. I can be extremely loving. It is within me to be faithful and true. However, there is a part of me that loves to play the game. Loves to use and abuse, fine-tuning my "mack skills" along the way. Purposely tripping up in the game just to see how easily I can get back on track. The people who I mentioned above never see this side of me and they never will. Nor will the girls who I have real feelings for and want to have something real with. Like Michelle. But girls like Angelina and perhaps even Yoleidi, serve a different purpose. My ego is hungry and must be fed. I'm one cocky hija de la gran puta but just as everything is balanced in life, there is enough good in me to be redempted.
Perhaps this entry is me battling with my intentions as I know they are not right but I state them to make myself aware that they exist and show myself what kind of person I am allowing myself to be at this moment.
In a fairytale, I might just come to know Angelina and start to really like her. In a fairytale, I may not just be a new experience to her but something she could really consider in her life. I feel as if we are equal in the motivation we have for the roles we are deciding to play. We both see something we can gain from the other person, benefit from. She is no longer the unsuspecting prey and I the wiser predator. It is a business deal really. A venture for me and an adventure for her.
Updates on this "project" to follow...