this kitten is adorable. so contemplative!
My life feels really surreal right now. It's funny how much a job can define you as a person, even some shitty part-time thing. Like working at starbucks. or guitar center.
without a real job (aspen doesn't count) i feel even more lost than usual. but it's not necessarily a bad lost. I've been able to do a lot of thinking. That's the other funny thing about having a real job. You do so little actual thinking. I guess because your time is a lot more hearty. Like a good steak. You feel more satisfied, fuller. You worry less and you probably don't allow yourself the same kinds of fantasies and daydreams. At least I don't. But there is so much comfort in that. In not thinking.
I enjoy going about my day, filled with things to do and no time to just sit and watch TV. I hate TV. I hate the internet. I think that becomes a lot more apparent to people when they don't have a job. I feel like I never want to see a television ever again or sit in front of a bright screen getting arthritis in my wrists and fingers.
On the other side of the coin, it's nice to regain your sense of ambition and go-gett-'em-ness. All I do is research universities and urban studies programs and community development associations and learn russian. It's a nice facade of getting something accomplished, of furthering myself in society because I'm actually learning and experiencing things. Of course the reality is that without a piece of paper certifying that you're a competent human, the things you learn on your own mean approximately shit.
You could be the smartest person in the world (or at least know the most facts) but live in a fucking gutter because you didn't have the money or patience or dedication to go through some bullshit certification program to get a degree or diploma. That's kind of bullshit.
As I tell people time and time again; there is no job that any able-bodied, able-minded person couldn't do if they were simply shown how.
Someone could show me how to perform brain surgery and I'd probably have it down in about one month. Compared to the ten years of college I have to endure to be able to actually do it. Ten years of medical school. How much money would that be? Ten years of your life you could be spending traveling the world or in the peace corps or doing ANYTHING BUT MEDICAL SCHOOL. I don't know.
The dollar is really out of fucking control. I hate that shit.
without a real job (aspen doesn't count) i feel even more lost than usual. but it's not necessarily a bad lost. I've been able to do a lot of thinking. That's the other funny thing about having a real job. You do so little actual thinking. I guess because your time is a lot more hearty. Like a good steak. You feel more satisfied, fuller. You worry less and you probably don't allow yourself the same kinds of fantasies and daydreams. At least I don't. But there is so much comfort in that. In not thinking.
I enjoy going about my day, filled with things to do and no time to just sit and watch TV. I hate TV. I hate the internet. I think that becomes a lot more apparent to people when they don't have a job. I feel like I never want to see a television ever again or sit in front of a bright screen getting arthritis in my wrists and fingers.
On the other side of the coin, it's nice to regain your sense of ambition and go-gett-'em-ness. All I do is research universities and urban studies programs and community development associations and learn russian. It's a nice facade of getting something accomplished, of furthering myself in society because I'm actually learning and experiencing things. Of course the reality is that without a piece of paper certifying that you're a competent human, the things you learn on your own mean approximately shit.
You could be the smartest person in the world (or at least know the most facts) but live in a fucking gutter because you didn't have the money or patience or dedication to go through some bullshit certification program to get a degree or diploma. That's kind of bullshit.
As I tell people time and time again; there is no job that any able-bodied, able-minded person couldn't do if they were simply shown how.
Someone could show me how to perform brain surgery and I'd probably have it down in about one month. Compared to the ten years of college I have to endure to be able to actually do it. Ten years of medical school. How much money would that be? Ten years of your life you could be spending traveling the world or in the peace corps or doing ANYTHING BUT MEDICAL SCHOOL. I don't know.
The dollar is really out of fucking control. I hate that shit.