Living
This is roughly how I see my life:
1. Survive the phase of my life before I became philosophically self-aware (that is the day you realize you're thoroughly irrational and must find thinking that is more reasonable.)
2. Learn as much as I can about my own irrationality, often through the irrationality of others. From the easy stuff (I delude myself when i'm mad) to the hard stuff (my moral system is stupid and based on whims.) This process took a few years.
3. Use my knowledge of my own irrationality to help develop to the point I can develop judgment and creative thought beyond it. This was very difficult.
4. Learn as much I can about the world's irrationality and become successful and powerful with that knowledge.
5. Use that power and knowledge to attempt to dismantle the world's irrationality. Use irrationality to fight irrationality, as I learned early on was the most effective way.
6. Become an irrelevant relic of a time long past. Sort of like a museum with legs. Spend time writing and working on minor, inconsequential projects.
I'm on step 4, which is pretty good for being younger than 30. I'm dead central in the factory were some of the world's best irrational brain candy gets made, just soaking it up and trying to learn it's secrets.
I just found it funny that what was once an internal struggle to submit my irrationality to my will, has become a social revolution i'm slowly working toward. The micro becomes the macro.
I also think its funny i'm working toward making myself obsolete. To help create a society where people like me serve little purpose but to talk about history. I'd die content...my little creative flurries that once moved mountains now reduced to fingernail scratches against the closing coffin door. My words that were once heavily radical shrunk down to anachronism. I'd call that a life well spent.
1. Survive the phase of my life before I became philosophically self-aware (that is the day you realize you're thoroughly irrational and must find thinking that is more reasonable.)
2. Learn as much as I can about my own irrationality, often through the irrationality of others. From the easy stuff (I delude myself when i'm mad) to the hard stuff (my moral system is stupid and based on whims.) This process took a few years.
3. Use my knowledge of my own irrationality to help develop to the point I can develop judgment and creative thought beyond it. This was very difficult.
4. Learn as much I can about the world's irrationality and become successful and powerful with that knowledge.
5. Use that power and knowledge to attempt to dismantle the world's irrationality. Use irrationality to fight irrationality, as I learned early on was the most effective way.
6. Become an irrelevant relic of a time long past. Sort of like a museum with legs. Spend time writing and working on minor, inconsequential projects.
I'm on step 4, which is pretty good for being younger than 30. I'm dead central in the factory were some of the world's best irrational brain candy gets made, just soaking it up and trying to learn it's secrets.
I just found it funny that what was once an internal struggle to submit my irrationality to my will, has become a social revolution i'm slowly working toward. The micro becomes the macro.
I also think its funny i'm working toward making myself obsolete. To help create a society where people like me serve little purpose but to talk about history. I'd die content...my little creative flurries that once moved mountains now reduced to fingernail scratches against the closing coffin door. My words that were once heavily radical shrunk down to anachronism. I'd call that a life well spent.