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this is me- what i really feel...

Sia - Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Im sick of screwing up, im tried of messing everything up. So sick of being tired, so tired of being sick.
I wish i could find a rewind button. I wish a lot of things.
Its hard, to be me and live like i want to when i am not allowed to.
But i had enough. Call me selfish, conceited, immature, foolish - whatever.
For now, i am living my life for me.. the world will be my own now.
Im not gonna care of let others stop me anymore.. im not gonna let them control me.
I have had enough..
i need to be free...
and to do that.. i need to find myself...

Im jus so tired... so sick and tired...