Log: Day 2
Day 2 8:00am - 8:30pm:
Well compared to yesterday today be a cake walk. Not to say it was any better, but they took it from completely frustrating to pretty much me slapping on the head phones and ignoring them entirely, I had plenty of Dr. Who to watch and the Andromeda Strain the movie to watch and a few other good shows. Ignoring them was simple and I think they occasionally tried to start shit, but it’s kind of hard when I am basically ignoring them out right. Thankfully Cal, Ivan, and Ben really don’t seem to give a shit and pretty much could careless about the whole thing, so that’s fine. Not to mention I am in the back seat of a car with a real seat unlike the ford the rest of them are in, though the Chevy looks good.
All of us in the Mazda pretty much agree this whole thing seems to be going off half assed and we would have been better off getting ourselves here. Though upon arrival going back down to the elevator I could hear them talking shit from the first floor up to here about me asking Cal and them shit about what it was like driving out with me what I was saying etc etc… For a group of people with such disdain for me, they sure do fucking love to talk about me, strange how little a talk about them unless I am saturated by their shallow immaturity. So other than that and my seeing just how obvious it is Roark really does need these guys it is time I probably look into finding Nicole an I other living arrangements. It’s not that he is being a jerk it’s the lack of support from someone I mistook as a real friend. Though he would make it seem like I am over reacting and taking it too seriously or something and if I do something to put an end to it or say something some how I am in the wrong. He cannot really handle confrontation and he really isn’t good at standing up for himself or anyone else so he sits aside and says nothing and smiles, laughs and grins. So I am really not sure I need friends like that. Also have full access to getting myself a room and or flight home at a minutes notice so really it’s a bit of an endurance test for me. So again, I have honestly and truly wasted more time with this than anything else ever in my life and have nothing but some free swag I could get at a local SAE meeting really. I am also fairly sure they skipped telling me they were just leaving for Wal-Mart and left without me, quite a wonderful bunch of assholes huh? Thankfully I am not a complete dumb fucking child and managed to pack ahead.
Trian has been funny he has at times almost seemed remorseful for being such a dick seeing just how much crap these idiots try to give me, but then at times he seems to want to jump in with them cause its what the group is doing. I get the feeling my silence and fairly serious DFWM (don’t fuck with me) kind of look is making him feel bad and uncomfortable, a tactic I have used more than once to convey that I have had enough with out really completely expressing it and it almost seems to work better with most people.
That’s pretty much it for today I am probably going to be here at least through tomorrow I will be using the Marriot WiFi to find flight and hotel prices if needed and a way to get my ass to Chicago. I have some serious life rearranging to do, new roommate or lack there of, probably new major concentration, and new job. So day two down, see how much longer I last in this endurance test. Though I will say this much I can see the lesson learned in this and though I haven’t been as bad as I used to be I wont likely be giving anyone as much shit as I used to, unless it is in the sprit of the moment, or you leave a huge wide open door for me, in ever bad experience I seem to have to deal with in life I find myself feeling older, more mature, and wiser. I guess that’s result of learning a lesson huh? I guess this is what getting old is about…