Log Day 1
Day 1 6:00 am Tues - 3:00am Wed:
So my suspicions were correct, when they let it slip in front of me in a way that was treated as if I shouldn’t have heard, that the 3rd chase car going, which had to pay for there own gas, were not going to get to drive the car at all. I found out this morning I was riding them, as I suspected. Meaning I will be shelling out money for gas which I was not up for doing and repeatedly told many time so I couldn’t afford to do. So for the past month I wasn’t really lied to, but the truth was kept from me so by the time I got there this morning, I had already spend 200 dollars on supplies and one month of health insurance for this race. So by now I was already locked in with this shit and stupidly put my bags in the trailer with the cars so and they took off right away so I was fucked. Honestly after the last few weeks of dealing with the advisor being a complete fucking asshole and seeing just how little we as students have control over this club I was fairly turned off to going at all, but I had hope I would have fun. So then the drive out I have dealing with this complete fucking idiotic jackass from Boston Eric Bringart. All he has to add to conversation is jokes about my mother and girlfriend respectably; why he didn’t make it to my sister I don’t know. He likes to call me retard and bitch when I talk shit back and the past week I caught shit for making fun of his accent despite all his bullshit. The most fantastic part is all of these assholes I am going out with pretty much see this crap as my fault and blame it on me and try to make me feel like an asshole. I can honestly say I have never truthfully WASTED more time with more immature, unprofessional, worthless, shallow group of complete fucking children. Even the supposed seniors who could not manage to even fucking build their own car. They are immensely proud of the fact they made a car somewhat comparable to the one a bunch of juniors and sophomores made. They remodeled a car, which is what the sophomore and junior team does. Seniors were supposed to build a new one, the fact they passed with D’s is just a credit to the everlasting scholastic excellence that ASU reaches for. Honestly makes me see why people do scoff at the school of engineering technology or whatever, but that’s a whole nother rant for a whole nother day. Needless to say I am in the process of cutting this trip short.
The most disappointing part of this is my supposed friend and unfortunate roommate is of the idea I am going to ruin this trip some how because of the way this asshole is acting and the fact I am the only one catching shit for this little war of words which is what really pisses me off, nothing else really. So if this never makes it online I probably beat him senseless and or broke multiple bones. Him and I had a long conversation about this awhile ago and it was somewhat heated argument that he could not really find a reason they don’t like me, some bullshit about me not respecting these assholes, when I have never disrespected them its as if he is saying I should just run around and be there bitch so they accept me, respect goes both ways with me and Until I have a reason or something I wouldn’t bother, especially since these rich bitches with cars mommy and daddy helped they buy or bought, or in the case of 2 daddy gave them a high paying job with their company so they could afford it. None of them have their own place, but they act like they are the coolest most mature kids around town drinking all their money away and sleeping with the worst trash you can find one of them an admitted ex and probably still coke addict. Honestly I doubt Roark has ever had “friends” so overtly “cool” and he honestly needs them cause he really don’t have many friends and none that really go out of there4 way to hang with them. They keep Roark around cause he’s smarter than they are and is a good way to make themselves feel smarter. And he just kinda sits there and has some crazy ideas that they are down for doing, but really add nothing to it and despite the fact none of them agree with his supposed standards he always seems to have, he hands with them regardless. Fo-friends unfortunately aren’t real friends and when people get caught up like Roark does with fo-friends, their real friends tend to move on and forget them.
So my advisor is doing his best to keep me from coming back next year, but he won that fight long ago, he at this point has crossed the line from being a jerk to having a gods honest personal problem with me as the rest of these fuckers do and usually I know what I have done to piss someone off ask anyone, the only reason I did it is because I didn’t see it as a logical or reasonable reason for someone to be pissed, cause I usually don’t give fuck unless your a friend or family. All I know is I am tired of this school, tired of the labor shop run by the MMET dept and they try to pass off as a student group that has no real control over its operation, and I am tired of these stupid fucking children pretending to be poor and mature, fucking idiots. Seriously, I could be over at Mars working and I really really wish I would have just stayed home…
P.S. Apologies for the train wreck of through up there, happens when you vent at 3:00am.