Not dead yet
Now, I am not quite sure if thats an affirmation or anthing but its probably the closest at one I will ever get. Been doing alot of isolationist self/ pertecting you all from me stuff. Family is as always family which means if you know or have read any of my past posts is pretty much crazed/depraved/lacking in any real world logic... really not feeling creative enough for a good similie or methaphor sorry.
Theres snow here, normaly I love it but I am a bid more indifferent lately. I am sure its due to me making a huge dicision and dumping all my pills but my blood preasure. It got to be scarey taking more pills a day then years I am old. some things have gotten better, and well some things havent. But then thats pretty much a senario for life then isnt it.
I get a visit from Dom and Christy today and that should be good. I havent been in contact with anyone in rl or online for a good long time. Not that I havent missed people. I miss lots of people. I miss talking to people that have iqs and or arent my cat. not that my cat is stupid hes a bloody genius as far as cats go but yeah I dont speak cat and I am dam sure sometimes I am glad I dont. Its been a real struggle living here with out any kind of support system. I even toss around the idea of trying to find JC and seeing if shes ok... but yeah, voices of reason tell me I probably wouldnt be helping anything for her or me if I did so... yeah...
Been making flash cards with my nieces. let me tell you ... making these bloody things is harder then it is for the kids to learn the dam letters thats for sure. First off I have to try to make the dam letters readable.. second I have to draw cause yeah I am to poor/cheap to buy stickers or printer ink. thirdly I have to think of words and pictures they would know.... hardest part i have to draw things that they know well enough for them to get it.... yeah apparently I cant draw grapes (which i thought looked good) but the kids thought i drew purple dog poo... but the crazy messed up looking pink elephant I drew that to me looks like a squiggle on crack ... oh they know thats an elephant some how .... thank goodness their cute.
so yeah thats about it from here, nope I am not dead yet.
Theres snow here, normaly I love it but I am a bid more indifferent lately. I am sure its due to me making a huge dicision and dumping all my pills but my blood preasure. It got to be scarey taking more pills a day then years I am old. some things have gotten better, and well some things havent. But then thats pretty much a senario for life then isnt it.
I get a visit from Dom and Christy today and that should be good. I havent been in contact with anyone in rl or online for a good long time. Not that I havent missed people. I miss lots of people. I miss talking to people that have iqs and or arent my cat. not that my cat is stupid hes a bloody genius as far as cats go but yeah I dont speak cat and I am dam sure sometimes I am glad I dont. Its been a real struggle living here with out any kind of support system. I even toss around the idea of trying to find JC and seeing if shes ok... but yeah, voices of reason tell me I probably wouldnt be helping anything for her or me if I did so... yeah...
Been making flash cards with my nieces. let me tell you ... making these bloody things is harder then it is for the kids to learn the dam letters thats for sure. First off I have to try to make the dam letters readable.. second I have to draw cause yeah I am to poor/cheap to buy stickers or printer ink. thirdly I have to think of words and pictures they would know.... hardest part i have to draw things that they know well enough for them to get it.... yeah apparently I cant draw grapes (which i thought looked good) but the kids thought i drew purple dog poo... but the crazy messed up looking pink elephant I drew that to me looks like a squiggle on crack ... oh they know thats an elephant some how .... thank goodness their cute.
so yeah thats about it from here, nope I am not dead yet.