I'm about to go trekking through the mountains of websites for a vehicle. Yes, Molly is getting a car. No, not on her own completely, but it's a start. A BIG fucking start. My sources of income are limited and will continue to be for the rest of my life (i.e. lots of government support), but I can say that my family and friends are the real support system, however cheesy that sounds. I wouldn't be here (quite literally) without you. And by "you" I mean everyone around me, anyone who has ever been around me, and people who will be around me in the future.
In other news, Evan is a bouncing baby boy growing at a rapid rate. I mean, really...the kid eats like there's no tomorrow, and for all he knows, there isn't one. That kind of perception blows my mind...he's so animalistic, yet so aware. I know everyone says this, but I truly am amazed every fucking day, and I don't know who to thank...or what. I'm reading Deepak Chopra's Unlocking the Hidden Secrets of Your Life and it's really helping with my perception of the world, God, the "mystery" of life. Et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. Of course you have to think of that in your best King of Siam voice.
"Come the morning light I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else, believe in me even if someone can't see a stronger woman in me. I'm gonna be my own best friend, stick with me 'til the end, won't lose myself again...never, no." I knew I always loved Jewel for a reason. If I have to watch CMT from 5 to 7 am to catch her "Stronger Woman" video a couple of times a day to get through my life, I will do it, damn it. :) I love Josh Turner's sexy ass country boy voice, too. I fell asleep (passed out) to it last night...I would go with him. Anywhere.
Yeah, I'm going through a country music phase. I love it all, really. There are a few people I don't like as with any genre, but I'm such a music whore right now it's not funny. I used to be a media whore, but now that I'm not sitting around letting my body make a baby, I just turn on Yahoo's Music LaunchCAST thingy and jam out while I run around the house like a crazy woman getting peed on. I get peed on a lot, so I listen to a lot of music. It's awesome. And I'm not being sarcastic. I also love Pandora, but apparently the script gets all wonky and Firefox constantly asks if I want to "abort" it. I never want to see, think, or hear that word ever again, so I don't use Pandora much anymore.
I miss my dad and sister. So. Much.