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I'm empty. And all I do is cry. And I was trying my best to hide that fact that all this was affecting me. But I can't hold on to my tears forever, and now I cry. I always cry, for various reasons, but I guess tonight, the reason is less stupid then the others. To tell you the truth, I hate crying, though it makes me feel better. When I cry, everyone asks me questions, they all want to know why, but nobody comes to confort me. Not even my own mother. You don't have to know the reason a person cries so you will be able to confort them, and all I wanted was a hug, to prove that somebody cares..
My mom said I'm just like her when she was a little girl. Ooh, what luck. She said when she was my age, she used to cry all the time anytime she felt like it, without any reason. that's great, so I got my mother's genes. She doesn't even know why I'm crying, and besides, she doesn't need to know. I only tell people, random people I choose. Of course, the love of my life would be on top of my list, of whom I should spill my reasons to, but he's never around, and I don't think it's possible to answer a question someone never asked.
I wish the hole in my heart could be fixed. I need a hug, a huge one, and not one given by pity. Though nobody will ever understand the reasons I hide in my head, I wish I could feel better. I'll just give out a few words to describe my pain, and maybe some could relate. I feel: confused and hopeless. Who else feels that way?
I don't know anyone near me who does, but if anyone does, they're good on not letting it show. I wish I was strong like that.. whoa! So much wishing in one room, from one lonely person. Why is it that this certain person feels lonely if she seems to have everything she needs? A mom who believes every word she says, a sister that gives up after a try or too on finding out a cause, an ignorant little brother, and a lover & also a father who is never there. I mean, face it. this girl has everything, so why does she feel so alone?
I feel alone because I'm insecure. I feel alone because I'm the only one in an opposite mood to happyness. I'm the only one shedding tears at this instant, and I feel so hopeless..
But he gave me a bracelt with the words "hope" ingraved into it. Hope? Well he gave it to the wrong person. There is no hope left inside me. Every bit of hope has been thrown millions of miles away.. nowhere to be found.
And if I could get back on my two feet, will I fall back down again? I know a while back, I had a feeling similar to this one, and I was able to feel a bit better, for 3 months. But then I fell back again. I'm still struggling to get back up, but I know it's not an easy road.. So many obstacles that I'll have to face alone..
But if you cared about me, would you help me? Would you be there to catch me when I fall?
..where are you..
L i b r a_kills.
My mom said I'm just like her when she was a little girl. Ooh, what luck. She said when she was my age, she used to cry all the time anytime she felt like it, without any reason. that's great, so I got my mother's genes. She doesn't even know why I'm crying, and besides, she doesn't need to know. I only tell people, random people I choose. Of course, the love of my life would be on top of my list, of whom I should spill my reasons to, but he's never around, and I don't think it's possible to answer a question someone never asked.
I wish the hole in my heart could be fixed. I need a hug, a huge one, and not one given by pity. Though nobody will ever understand the reasons I hide in my head, I wish I could feel better. I'll just give out a few words to describe my pain, and maybe some could relate. I feel: confused and hopeless. Who else feels that way?
I don't know anyone near me who does, but if anyone does, they're good on not letting it show. I wish I was strong like that.. whoa! So much wishing in one room, from one lonely person. Why is it that this certain person feels lonely if she seems to have everything she needs? A mom who believes every word she says, a sister that gives up after a try or too on finding out a cause, an ignorant little brother, and a lover & also a father who is never there. I mean, face it. this girl has everything, so why does she feel so alone?
I feel alone because I'm insecure. I feel alone because I'm the only one in an opposite mood to happyness. I'm the only one shedding tears at this instant, and I feel so hopeless..
But he gave me a bracelt with the words "hope" ingraved into it. Hope? Well he gave it to the wrong person. There is no hope left inside me. Every bit of hope has been thrown millions of miles away.. nowhere to be found.
And if I could get back on my two feet, will I fall back down again? I know a while back, I had a feeling similar to this one, and I was able to feel a bit better, for 3 months. But then I fell back again. I'm still struggling to get back up, but I know it's not an easy road.. So many obstacles that I'll have to face alone..
But if you cared about me, would you help me? Would you be there to catch me when I fall?
..where are you..
L i b r a_kills.