filling jars full of silence you'll get nowhere
sometimes thoughts and feelings come to me that i know do not belong to me.
we missed the exit but kept driving because we needed time to realize who we are inside. the road stretched out like tunnels leading to black holes or dead end streets. so we parked the car and swallowed the rain. burning holes in our mouths. got back in the car and just drove. ended up where we were meant to be rather than where we had intended to be. the rain froze into large boulders of ice denting the hood and flooding the engine with melted blood loss. but you held my hand in the hospital bed as i slowly came to terms with reality. but the men in white coats stabbed excess blood into me with thier needles so i asked them for some more. i felt that i was running low. drugs..they came and went with each passing day. they came without order, without warning or reason. no, logic did not exist here. they just came until you arrived in small packages of clear fluids beeping insidiously. just to remind me i'm still alive. if it werent for the beeping i wouldn't be so sure. your head on my chest breaks the silence..i mean the numbness. i would kiss your face but they tell me it will all be over soon so i just hold on and try to remember everything. i want to remember every detail of these jars they fill full of silence.
we missed the exit but kept driving because we needed time to realize who we are inside. the road stretched out like tunnels leading to black holes or dead end streets. so we parked the car and swallowed the rain. burning holes in our mouths. got back in the car and just drove. ended up where we were meant to be rather than where we had intended to be. the rain froze into large boulders of ice denting the hood and flooding the engine with melted blood loss. but you held my hand in the hospital bed as i slowly came to terms with reality. but the men in white coats stabbed excess blood into me with thier needles so i asked them for some more. i felt that i was running low. drugs..they came and went with each passing day. they came without order, without warning or reason. no, logic did not exist here. they just came until you arrived in small packages of clear fluids beeping insidiously. just to remind me i'm still alive. if it werent for the beeping i wouldn't be so sure. your head on my chest breaks the silence..i mean the numbness. i would kiss your face but they tell me it will all be over soon so i just hold on and try to remember everything. i want to remember every detail of these jars they fill full of silence.